wishing you all the best this season has to offer. good life, good cheers, good friends, good health!

cheers!

nearing completion

i am almost there.

i am at the precipice.

i am at the tipping point.

i am at the brink.

i am at the zenith.

i am at the cliff.

i am at the lion's den.

i am on slippery ground.

i will be under fire.

one last step --

one more step.

i will be devoured.

i will be burned.

and i shall blissfully walk

towards eternity.

oh em gee

owmaygad. there it is again! look!!!!!!!

the second christmas party

i'll just add more text here later but for now, here are the pics.











click here for more!

ciao!

yet another dental escapade

so right after i woke up, i went to the dentist for a check-up on my molars. as previously mentioned, i've been experiencing hell-like pain for almost four days now and it has been tormenting me eversince. so, i've been really looking forward to this morning for i imagine the next years of living my life dental-pain-free.

now, here's the catch: as per my dentist's findings (x-ray and physical check-up) there should not be any problem because my scan's clean. she did find translucence in the x-ray but it was not with molar i (might) have been complaining about. now i've got to endure the pain for a week more because i've got to observe and pinpoint exactly where the pain lies.

i talked to her about all the things that we can do and as i expected there are two: a complete extraction of the aching tooth or a root canal procedure for the three nerves to preserve my tooth. of course, my primary concern is the cost. hello, i wouldn't wanna spend another thirty grand for teeth *cringes, shivers* hell no.
so it's extraction which roughly costs five thousand and that includes the filler so that my teeth won't move or a root canal which would preserve my tooth but would cost twice as that.

dillema, dillema, dillema.

i also told her about everything i did with and took for my pain and i asked if there is something stronger than ponstan. she prescribed flanax. now this is what would kill me -- the waiting part.

goodluck to me.

dear lord, please spare me this one. please...

i saw dead people

i saw two dead men sprawled on the street in sucat interchange last friday night. i just couldn't get the image out of my head. it was freaky and scary at the same time as there were a lot of policemen with big guns guarding the scene. we almost saw the other 14 along sucat service road but we were wise enough to turn back as traffic was not moving. (on second thought, it was also unwise as that was the time when we saw those dead men) *shivers*

read news here.

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in other news, i almost did not want to post this here but what the heck:

my head is about to explode. as of now, and three days back, i'm experiencing my worst toothache. there are no cavities to pinpoint exactly where it aches. but man, it throbs and it radiates throughout half of my head. i'm literally awakened in the middle of the night because of the pain. i haven't had a decent sleep for two nights now. i was actually on the verge of rushing myself to makati med last night because of the pain if only the fear of paying huge amounts of money didn't stop me. just to give you an idea, yesterday i downed 7 advils and 2 ponstans just to make it bearable. i was so high on painkillers, my eyes feel like popping anytime soon.
tomorrow morning, i'll be visiting the dentist yet again. hopefully it wouldn't cost me as much as it did before. remember this? right, "THAT."

wish me luck.

ciao!

patay!

patay. malapit na pasko. patay nanaman ang budget. patay nanaman ang diet. patay nanaman ang ninong at ninang. sa parte ko, patay nanaman ang mga inaanak ko. patay din dahil toooot na ang toooot ni toooot.

well, dahil malapit na ang pasko, sasabayan ko na ang mga taxi drivers sa pangangapal ng mukha. (napansin niyo ba kung pano sila naging LALO PANG mapili, maarte, mareklamo, at talagang makakapal ang mukha??)

pero bago pa ko mapunta sa kapalan portion, pansinin niyo ang binagong paglalapat ng mga bagay. mas malaki na siya at ang banner... naman.... paskong pasko!! pwera nalang sa pang-undas na mukha na nasa kaliwa. wag nang pakelaman dahil ganyan talaga.

heniweist, dahil isa ka sa mga stalker ko -- at apat lang naman ang dahilan nito: una, kamaganak kita. pangalawa, may gusto ka sakin. pangatlo, pinilit kitang bumisita sa blog ko. at ang pang-apat (pinaka walang kwenta sa lahat) naligaw ka lang dito ng aksidente -- eto ang wishlist ko... dahil hindi ako materyoso.

note: para lang mas feel ko, may tumutugtog na christmas songs sa background ko ngayon habang nagsusulat hehehe.

nikon d60

ISANG MALAKING DUH! sinaunang panahon ko pa nilalawayan yan, kaya. peryod.

peace on earth
because i believe in the essence of being human... bwahahahaha. pero seryoso yan.

peace of mind
papayag ba kong ang mundo lang ang may peace? selfish naman ako kahit papano.

lampshade
nasira yung chipanggang lampshade na binili ko. takte, yun pa naman yung "touch touch" na lampshade. ang bilis naman masira. pfft.

bed
kasi yung kama ko, pinamahayan na ata ng mga engkanto sa kalumaan. di ko type masyado ang poster bed, natuwa lang ako sa itsura nito.

couch
para maganda.

dining set
para MAS maganda.

red wall
matagal ko nang gusto pinturahan ng red. kaso nakakatakot pag summer. baka mamatay ako sa init.

apartment renovation
para mas madali =D

eto naman mga gusto kong bilhin para sa sarili ko. halo halo na yan.

casual shirts, lots of them. leather shoes - i've been looking but i haven't found one that i like, yet. macbook - wishlist nga eh. sony ericsson xperia - parang maganda kasi, pero hindi ko bibihin haha. pabango - may pabango na rin akong ganyan, di ko lang alam kung yan ulit gusto ko or hanap ako ng iba ulit na magugustuhan ko. earphones/earbuds - nginatngat ng daga yung sa ipod ko, shet. boxer briefs - marami, para di na ko bibili. gusto ko yung cotton/lycra blend para snug and breathable. yung isang malaking speaker ng ipod - wala lang, ayoko talaga, natuwa lang ako sa itsura haha. at matagal ko nang iniisip kung magpapatahi ako ng bagong suit. maayos naman yung suit na napatahi ko last time, kaso parang may hinahanap akong iba. yung tipong pagsuot mo pa lang, feel na feel mo na humarap sa tao. hehehe. ang arte. di ko rin alam kung gusto ko ng charcoal grey or grey talaga. wala lang.

ok yun lang. bow.

ciao!

the reproductive health bill

my blog has always been a repository of all things emotional, physical, mental, financial, spiritual, visual, but almost never political. i'm a slightly political person but in this blog, i think i've been almost apolitical.

however, because of the sheer ignorance and hypocrisy (not discounting the bullying of the catholic church) of the many filipino people, i think it's high time that we just pass the REPRODUCTIVE HEALTH BILL into law.

have you seen how many filipino parents have gone mad because they could not feed their dozen brood? or how many women have died because of backstreet abortion? or the simple fact that there are more filipino people than access to education, housing, food, health care, etc? HELLO! and i just could not be more appalled and aghast at the church's way of bullying many of the politicians into not signing the bill. i believe in abstinence, i believe in prayer, and i believe in God. but i also believe in giving each and every filipino child a healthy, productive, and sustainable life. i mean, if people could not eat, could not study, could not work, and could not pay for their electric bill, what do expect them to do?! sleep?!

the least we can do is educate them on the many ways they can prevent the spread of diseases and their exposure to unnecessary dangers in the future.

i am for the reproductive health bill. and you can be, too!

sign here!

ciao!

ang pagtatapos

the dale carnegie training offers the following courses:

dale carnegie course: effective communications and human relations

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In short, the course will power you to move far beyond your comfort zone as you stretch for and attain ambitious new goals.

leadership training for managers

Leadership development has meant different things in different times. The modern leader knows that it means developing the skills needed to motivate the modern team. These necessary skills can be learned through a leadership development training program, which is less stressful than being forced to learn the skills on the job. Working your way up the ladder, you've experienced numerous leadership styles from the previous generations of managers. With these new expectations, managers need to undertake new leadership development training strategies.

This management leadership training course will teach you how to stop managing and start leading; and, as a result, make you a vital part to your organization's future. Investing in leadership development training will help build your team's leadership fundamentals, which will ensure you are more than likely to have a bright career path ahead of you.

This management leadership training course also empowers you to practice the skills you need to stop pushing and start pulling. Developing the skill set of the modern leader will help your team to thrive within the company and it will help you to achieve your career goals.

high impact presentation

Whether you are persuading colleagues, selling a client or energizing a team, the power of your presentation makes the difference between success and failure.

The experience in this presentations skills training seminar is as close as you can get to having a personal, public speaking coach. You present at least seven times over the course of two days. Your presentations are videotaped and evaluated. And you get expert one-on-one coaching at the end of each presentation.

(source: http://www.philippines.dalecarnegie.com)

the executive training institute is the sole franchise holder of dale carnegie training in the philippines.

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masaya akong natapos ko na ang lahat ng ito. dahil dito, tapos na ang panahon ng pamimilit ng mga kasamahan sa trabaho sa pagdalo sa mga kursong ito =) ngunit sa kabila nito, ako ay masaya sa aking pagtatapos.

katulad ng nabanggit ko, natapos ko na ang ikatlo at pinakahuling kurso na tinatawag na high impact presentation. ang una kong dahilan kaya ako nagpalista sa kurso ay gusto kong maging mas mabisa sa paghihimok sa mga taong dumadalo sa aking mga pagsasanay. bagamat ang karera ko ay nasa pagsasanay o training, naniwala ako na hindi ako isang "ma-sales" na tao. sa totoo lang, ako ang tipo ng tao na hindi namimilit: kung gusto mo, mabuti. kung ayaw mo, 'di 'wag. kabilang sa aming ginagawa tuwing kami ay nagsasalita sa harap ay maghimok ng tao. kaya naman ang pagbabago sa ganitong istilo ang una kong layunin sa pagsali sa kurso.
kaya naman laking gulat ko nalang ng sabihan ako ng aming tagapagsanay na mabuti at epektibo akong tagapagsalita upang manghimok ng tao; sa totoo lang, parang nakikipaglaro ang kalawakan sa akin sapagkat sa tuwing ako ay magtatapos ng aking pagsasalita sa harap, lagi akong pinupuri ng aming tagapagsanay. hindi naman sa pagyayabang, ngunit minsan, masarap din sa pakiramdam ang mapatunayan na ako pala ay may kwenta. malabo man kung iisipin, minsan mabuti ang masabihan na ikaw ay mali -- lalo pa kung ito ay may kinalaman sa iyong kakayanan.
nagkaroon kami ng pitong pagkakataong makapagsalita sa harap upang maitama at masabihan kung ano man ang kailangan naming baguhin o ayusin sa aming pagsasalita. at sa lahat ng pagkakataong iyon, wala namang masamang nasabi sakin. pinagpupursigi pa nga ako ng aming tagapagsanay na ipagpatuloy ko ang karera sa pagsasanay sapagkat ako daw ay may natural na biyaya sa pagharap at pagsasalita sa madla. wala akong ibang masabi kundi ang lubos na pasasalamat at binanggit ko na rin sa aming tagapagsanay ang tungkol sa aking paniniwala bago pa man ako magsimula sa kurso.

hindi ko na nais pahabain pa ang mistulang pagbubuhat ng sariling upuan. ang punto ng aking pagsusulat ngayon ay hindi para gawin ito kung hindi ang pagpaptunay sa sarili ko na mahusay pala ako at ang kailangan ko lang ay maniwala sa aking kakayanan.

siguro rin ay nagtataka kayo kung bakit ako nagsusulat sa wikang filipino. ako ay nagsulat sa wikang filipino sapagkat nabanggit sa akin ng aming tagapagsanay na ang nakikita niya sa akin ay isang pang-"corporate" na tagapagsanay at hindi siya sigurado kung kaya kong humarap sa masa. pinatunayan ko sa kanya, at sa akin, na kaya ko ito sa pamamagitan ng aking huling paguulat sa wikang filipino. pinandigan ko na lamang ang pagsusulat dito sa filipino.

sa pagtatapos, nais kong magpasalamat sa aking mga kasamahan sa trabaho sa paghihimok sa akin na dumalo sa nasabing kurso. nagpapasalamat din ako sa aming tagapagsanay na si rex resurreccion at elean pazon sa mga mabubuting salita na masagana at taos puso nilang ipinamahagi sa akin at sa buong klase. pinasasalamatan ko rin ang aking mga kamag-aral sa pagsuporta at patuloy na paniniwala sa akin at isa't-isa sa pamamagitan ng pagbibigay ng angkop na palagay, pananaw, at kritisismo sa bawat pagsasanay. nawa'y naging mabuti at masaya ang kurso sa inyong lahat, tulad ng sa akin.

sa panahong ito, gusto ko rin magpasalamat sa Panginoon sa pagbibiyaya sa akin ng mga talentong minsan ay hindi nagagamit sa tama. sa Panginoon ang buong kadakilaan!

muli, maraming, maraming salamat!

i don't know what to feel

click to enlarge.

in a few month's time, it jumped 4 months already. hmmm... i wonder how long it would take for that to get to july.

i don't know what to feel.

she is HOTTT!

i am so amused with this:

amazing no? she's like the human energizer rabbit on viagra on stage!!! deng!!!!

ciao!

lunes ulit

bilang nagkaroon nanaman ng isang weekend, nagbalak akong magedit-edit lang.

sa 'di pinlanong pagkakataon, nagkaroon kami ng photoshoot ng pinsan ko gamit ang digital na slr ng boypren (mok) ng pinsan (cheska) ko nung isang-isang linggo (matagal na, in short). pinaglaruan at nagfeeling lang. at bilang utu-uto rin ang pinsan ko, hinimok ko siyang pumose-pose sa pinakamalinis na dingding ng bahay namin (mahirap humanap ng ganun okey?!). ayun nagpauto naman siya at nakakuha ako ng mga maayos na shots ng mukha niya. lilane pala pangalan niya.
ewan ko ba, siguro nasa portraiture ang karera ko at kahit na anong lawak ng shots ko, di ko namamalayang naka-crop ko na pala siya sa papunta sa mukha. kaya yung mga gustong magpabeauty shots jan, pumunta lang sa bahay ko sa makati (hindi yung sa dasma o sa forbes, dahil ni lupa sa paso, wala ako dun) at magdala ng tumataginting na pera, pera, salapi, salapi, kwarta, at kwarta. kung ayaw niyo, 'di wag, wala namang pilitan to eh. tutal, maguutuan lang naman tayo. (sabayan ako sa pagbigkas: HINDI AKO MUKHANG PERA o MONEY-FACED sa mga tanga tanga magtranslate diyan)

sabi ko nga, level na kung level ang pagpapanggap ko. bilang gayon, gumawa ako ng isang logo para sa mga ret... ritra... litrat... pictures na i-eedit ko ng maximum level.

naiinis ka na ba sa sulat ko? 'di bale, ako rin. kaya ito na ang mga RITRATRO na todomaximum kong inedit. magpakalunod ka. saksak mo sa baga mo. tignan mo ng tignan hanggang sa mamatay ka. =P jowk lang! 'to naman sensitive! emo ka?! oha oha..

nga pala, wag kalimutan ang star ng bawat ritrato, ang logo. =P

una kong gawa. gusto ko ng natural lang... natural na pageedit.

natutuwa ako dito kasi ninakaw ko lang yang shot na yan. ang lakas kasi ng bentilador sa harap ng mukha niya. in fairview, quezon city, mukha namang natural lang.

at dahil natuwa ako sa "look" at "feel" ng picture, fineel ko na rin ang magedit. tutal, malapit na magpasko.

siguro napansin mo na rin na nag-edit ako ng mga pictures nitong nakalipas na linggo para kunyari lomo. ayun, inapply ko ulit siya ng konti lang naman. narealize ko, gusto ko ng mukhang lumot ang kulay.

o ayan pa isa. umart lang ng konti sa likod likod. kunyari may drama. pero kuware lang.

o siya. nahihilo na ko sa pagpapanggap.

MEEEEEEEDIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCCCCCCCCC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111

pero wait lang, game na, purihin niyo na ko sa sorbang galing ko.

hep hep hep hep!! @&%~$*^ ka rin!

ciao!

hmm ok

so, is that it?

i can do that, too.

and oh, share some pics. bleeech!

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bag-o lamang ko diri. ingon nako sa imo mu-tuo na jud ko bisag unsa'y sultihon nimo. ayaw lagi ug panibuang diha kay mu-tuo man ko. oki?

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pang-ilan na kayong tumawag dito at ilang beses ko na ring sinabing walang ganyang tao dito. i know it's not your fault but please, inform the others. thanks!

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i don't like surprises. never been a fan of it. you can try; if i like it, then i'd be happy. i'm confusing, i know. yes, this is for you!

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anton is transferring offices. these are some of the pics from his last day... in galleria, that is.

last picture: i wasn't really aware that vins was at my back so i was scared to see vins after tin took the pic.

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i was doodling while watching tv and i thought i should color it in photoshop -- and i did.


i don't know which one is better, red or blue. so this is my take.

so, red or blue? haha

ciao!

monday artsy blues

so it's a monday. apart from it being a laundry/cleaning/domestic-helper day, i drew, i painted, and i tried my hand on lomography. well, uhmm, not quite. =D i just edited old artsy fartsy pics to make it look like lomo. i liked how some of it turned out, though. these are my faves.


dami kong favorites, no? haha!
click here for moar!

ciao!

vuma-van gogh!

so after doing graphite on paper, i tried pastels again Ü
this time, i was inspired by van gogh's starry starry night.

tin tin requested for this, so.

** i was so excited to finish, by the way hahahahahahah ang daming excuses!!

i just took a camera phone pic, so ayun, malabo.. Ü

oil pastels on paper
4.5 x 6 inches

yun lang po, bow!

ciao!

on a beer bucket

me: ay, ako rin!

i still got it!

i finally brought my ass to the nearest bookstore and bought myself some art materials.
did this to "test the gears."

lines
graphite on paper

guess i still have it hehe.

and no, i don't have any idea who this person is, i just got some newspaper and drew the first old man i saw. =)

while drawing, i was playing this.

i think this is the best cover i heard so far. he lowered the pitch, too, which made me sing along with him hehe.

coolness, this day!

ciao!

i paint again

i was inspired to paint again, thanks to youtube. i'll be buying my art supplies again soon. for now, i have to be content with photoshop.

i know it's still rough but i'm just using the standard mouse. i can't get the feel of the brush on the space as i should if i use graphite and paper. i'm happy with how it looks, though.

red eyes

this is also supposed to be the whole face but i got lazy midway through hehe.

ciao!

randomness

for the 10th time, we went to papa's grave yesterday. can't believe it's been that long.

(CW from upper left: jr, cheska, lilane; cherry, bryan; cheska, lilane; angel, cherry)

(CW from upper left: cheska, lilane; raf (lilane's son), bryan; and more of raf)

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new can be exciting =)

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i'm enjoying the long weekend -- dvd marathon, phone conversations, blog updating, blog stalking, friends, pigging out.

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i ate half of a tub of ice cream in one sitting.

my tummy hurts.

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up until now, i haven't been to the spa. hello macky, sharon, and rr! whatever happened to our spa day?

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=/ i miss work (?)

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who wants spam?!

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i seriously need to clean m'bunch's cage and m'bunch herself. the bitch is stinky and sticky.

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has anyone seen you smile today? do! it can make a whole lotta difference. and yes, I just said that.

ciao!