settling dust

it's sunday morning today and i feel just fine. the dust, i think, has finally settled and everything seems clear to me now. as old and as ordinary as everything is, so i feel fresh and excited about everything. dark greys are now becoming greens and reds and yellows -- bright becomes everything. in retrospect, i think sundays have always been my day.

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright sun shiny day

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I've been prayin' for
It's gonna be a bright sun shiny day

Look all around, there's nothin' but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin' but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright sun shiny day

i can see clearly now

so the year of the ox has come early for me. as a pig (the chinese zodiac ok?!), it has brought about renewed vigor, rejuvenation, revival, rebirth, o ang muling pagsilang.

ciao!

smoke

Leaf by Leaf page by page
Throw this book away
All the sadness all the rage
Throw this book away
Rip out the binding, tear the glue
All of the grief we never ever knew
We had it all along
Now its smoke
The things we've written in it
Never really happened
All of the people come and gone
Never really lived
All of the people have come have gone
No one to forgive smoke
We will never write a new one
There will not be a new one
Another one, another one
Here's an evening dark with shame
Throw it on the fire
here's the time I took the blame
Throw it on the fire
Here's the time we didn't speak
it seemed for years and years
Here's a secret
No one will ever know
the reasons for the tears
They are smoke
Where do all the secrets live
They travel in the air
You can smell them when they burn
They travel
Those who say the past is not dead
Stop and smell the smoke
You keep on saying the past is not dead
Come on and smell the smoke
You keep saying the past is not even past
You keep saying
We are, smoke

ciao!

flavors of entanglement

because music is my saviour and alanis is a demi-god with india arie as her headpiece and mika, her jester, i give you life in cartoon motion with flavors of entanglement, and you know that's the heart of the matter.

(turn off my site's sound on the right panel)

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
-- the heart of the matter

I've never let my grasp soften fingers like this...
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
-- moratorium

These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
-- versions of violence

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"
-- not as we

am dancing with my friends in elation
We’ve taken adventures to new levels of fun
I can feel the bones are smiling in my body
I can see the meltings of inhibition
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
-- giggling for no reason

I am someone easy to leave
Even easier to forget
A voice, If inaccurate
Again, I’m the one they all run from
Diatribes of clouded Sun
Someone help me find the pause Button
-- tapes

One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy
-- incomplete

These are things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
-- torch

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in
-- any other world

Don't let the stars get you down.
Don't let the waves let you drown.
Brown...Oh Billy Brown.
Gonna pick you up like a paper cup.
Gonna shake the water out of every nook.
Oh Billy Brown.
-- billy brown

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together...
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
-- happy endings

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.
-- my interpretation

flavors of entanglement is alanis' newest album after her breakup from ryan reynolds. it's not the alanis i'm used to - with some electric and synth tracks (moratorium). rather, this album speaks more of (her) grief than angst.
life in cartoon motion left me speechless because it was one of the most played albums in my ipod. but it is just this week that i actually "heard" the songs' lyrics. it baffled me, but after a few seconds of disbelief, i loved it even more.
india arie is india arie. this is a cover, though, of don henley's (eagles) song. but i like her version better.

ciao!

battle of who could care less

i know i posted ben folds five before. but for reasons unknown to me, it's just today that downloaded ALL their songs. at wala na yatang tatalo pa sa pagka-emo ng mga kanta nila. kahit upbeat, umi-emo ang level ng lyrics nila. heniway, aside from my favorite evaporated, listen to this! astig lang!

Do you not hear me anymore
I know its not your thing
-- To care
I know its cool to be so bored
But it sucks me in when you're aloof
It sucks me in, it sucks it works
I guess its cool to be alone

Will you never rest
Fighting the battle of who
Could care less
Every day you wake up late
Sometimes I wish I was
That way

see, i told you they're great!

in other news, since today is a monday, i once again appointed myself as the aliping namamahay for the whole day. my lower back and my legs are killing me right now. i was on an ironing-happy self again and i ironed out all the clothes i can lay my hands on. ayan, ang sakit tuloy. plus, hinabol ko pa yung laba ko na naiwan last week because of the weather. if there's one thing i don't like about rainy days ('coz i LURV rainy days), it's the fact that i can't hang my clothes out in the sun to dry. boooh.

'yun lang poH. hanggang d2 nlng poH ang ME. sana POH nagenjoy ang U para MXEA.
tahngenahngshiyeht. (bigkasin ng parang am-boy)

ciao!

mad world - gary jules

this is a great song. period.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

binisaya lang ta

kamingaw kaayo oy. kanus-a man ka mu-balik dinhi? kay baling dugay-a na ta dili nagkauban usab. pauli na lagi.

uban ta sa dumaguete ha. tawagon ta ka katong semana =)

taka-taka lamang ko oy.

noel cabangon - nag-iisa, wala ka na

right now, music is my salvation. what i cannot express in words, some other brilliant artist would tell my story and express what i'm feeling more eloquently and more artistically. one of them is my favorite OPM artist, noel cabangon. he is the artist behind the nostalgic "kanlungan."

through the net, i found out that he has released another album last year. i searched on youtube for his songs and found "nag-iisa, wala ka na."

the melody, the lyrics - the wholeness of it - is perfection.

papalubog na naman ang ilaw
nagpapaalam na naman ang araw
ang gabi ay muling mamamayani
at ang lamig ay hahaplos sa pisngi

ilang araw na ang lumipas
magmula nang ika’y magpaalam
ilang gabi na ang nagdaraan
ang pag-iisa’y tila di na makayanan

ngunit kailangang kong indahin ang lamig ng gabi
ngunit kailangan kong tanggaping wala ka na sa tabi
nag-iisa, wala ka na
wala ka na, nag-iisa

alaala’y nagbabalik sa isip
mga larawan ng bawat sandali
pag-ibig nating sinumpaan
ipinangako sa liwanag ng buwan

ngunit kailangan ko nang masanay
at tanggapin na lumisan ka na ng tunay
ang lahat-lahat ay bubuti
ang pag-ibig ay mananatili
lagi’t lagi…
hanggang sa walang hanggan…

i might do a cover sometime.

song of the moment

i like. la lang. =P

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I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place

C: It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelings that i adore

it starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

[Bubbly lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

But what am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmm

Starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

da da da da da da da da bu dum da dum da dum da da dum ...mmmmmm

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin me tight.

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go...

self portrait

self-portrait

sino ka nga ba?

ikaw ba ay isa lamang sa milyong
hibla ng aking imahinasyon?

ikaw ba ang siyang
himig sa aking mga titik at letra
na hindi ko maipag-isa?

sadya ka bang mailap
tulad ng katinuang
matagal ko nang hinahanap?

sadya ka bang mapaglaro?
sadya ka bang mangungulit
sa diwa kong puyat?

mapusok ka bang talaga
na kahit pilitin kong limutin
ay parang batong babagsak
kahit ihagis pataas?

bakit ba hindi ka lumubay?

bakit sadya kang nandyan - tumititig?

mag-ingat ka.

baka kita'y biglang hablutin!

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billy/bryan

I am leaving today (don't know where I'm going).
Hold my head in disgrace (I can't escape the truth).
I know the price that I've paid.

I admit that it's too late to admit that I'm afraid.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes my soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but I'm always open,
To relive time in my mind.
Oh Bryan.

I am leaving today (don't know where I'm going).
I've got lines on my face (they tell the story of my pain).
I accept it's my fate.
I admit it took too long to admit that I was wrong.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes my soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but I'm always open,
To relive time in my mind.
Oh Bryan.

Once I was a lover sleeping with another.
Now I'm just known as a cheat.
And I wish I have a mirror; look a little clearer.
Seen into the eyes of the weak.

Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes my soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but I'm always open,
To relive time in my mind.
Oh Bryan.

dance with my father again

dance with my father again

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end

How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream


i just heard this play on the tv the other night. i thought the lyrics was ________.
enjoy.

angels

I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we’re grey and old
’cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I’m lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call
she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

When I’m feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I’ll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call
she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

i want this angel NOW!

same ground

My love,Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.Its hard leaving you that way when
I never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
Its strange i never would've
wanted if until there was you.

Because i have learned that love is beyond
what human can imagine,
the more it clears the more i have to let you go.

that's why i don't understand is why im feeling
so bad now when i know it was my idea.
i could've just denied the truth and
lied. but why am i the only one standing stranded
on the same ground?

Because i have learned that love is a
word gets thrown a little bit too much.
the best excuse to fill the infinite abyss
i have never have to if all else fail

If all else fail, would you be there to love me?
If all else fail, would you be brave to see right
through me?

... so true

... i'm feeling alright now