insanely sane and random

ok one more real post this year. as you all know, my new year didn't really quite start right. there are a lot of issues/things that i have to deal with these past few days, weeks. i don't really know but i guess i'm welcoming the fact that my colleague at work unveiled to us the direction and plans that our department is going to take for the next six months. it's gonna be BU-SY. imagine that, six months, i laughed in my mind.

yes, i always feel sad the minute i unlock the door of my apartment. it's this irritating thought/fact that for the next waking hours it's gonna be just me. yes, too, as i walk up the stairs, i try to kill those thoughts with every step i take. one step, i'm happy that i have work to keep me insanely busy. second step, i've got my friends behind me whom i can bide my time with. third step, i have m'bunch, who loves me to death, follows me everywhere, as in everywhere i go. i even had to shoo her away when she tried to follow me in the bathroom. fourth step... i lose my train of thought. it's either my mind would wander to a different dimension OR would almost automatically start feeling sad again. argh.

"i choose to be happy. i choose to be happy. "

lately, too, i've been really irritable. the slightest thing can annoy me. almost to the point that i want to snap. though, fortunately, i'm still conscious enough, well, sane enough, to just hold it in until it fades away.

i can feign a smile or a laughter but this is not a farce. this is the show of my life.

guess what? i don't really expect you to put up with me.

ciao.

m'bunch in serendra, bonifacio high street and other not-so-interesting happenings

the weekend before new year, after being bored to death at home, jd, rr, gerry, and i went to serendra/bhs to have coffee. we brought along honeybunch. my first reason for bringing bunch with me was for her not-so-often walk. second was, baka may ma-cute-an sa kanya tapos ma-cute-an din sakin LOL.
when we were there, m'bunch was as good as any trained dog. the bitch didn't pee on the sidewalk. she only did when we stayed in the sand box. good doggie. no cleaning up for me.
we stayed there for about 40 minutes and went back to the car. as we were making our way to the car park, i suddenly felt something stop the leash i was holding. turns out, honeybunch was not as 'trained' as i thought. she crapped in the pathway going out to the carpark. shit. i immediately pulled her to the side and she was stopping me with her feet. poor dog. i had to drag her to the side, still. and a family was looking at poor m'bunch being dragged. hahhahaha.. it's not animal cruelty. =P
yeah i had to clean it after. it was a good thing that i brought a plastic bag and plenty of scratch papers. and there's this coffee cup, too LOL.

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i downloaded sarah brightman's album a few days ago and found it interesting. i liked the melody and her singing style in hijo de la luna. i also googled the lyrics and with very little understanding of the spanish language, i managed to get the story of the song. yun nga lang, meron pala sa wikipedia. look!

The lyrics depict a "gypsy" woman, who prays an entire night to the Moon goddess for a husband. In the end, the moon says that she shall have her man, but in return she wants her first-born child to be turned over to her.

When the child is born, it turns out that its skin color does not resemble the parent's one, but instead is white "like the back of an ermine" (the white fur of a stoat originating from Armenia[3]), and has grey eyes. The gypsy man automatically assumes that his wife committed adultery, and kills her with a knife. Afterwards, he carries the infant onto the top of a mountain, where he abandons it.

The child is taken up into the sky by the moon, and on nights when the moon is full, it is because the child is happy, and when the child cries, the moon will wane to make him a cradle.

The chorus throughout the song says that the moon wants to be a mother, yet cannot find a lover who will make her a woman (and therefore, impregnate her), and questions her as to what she would do with a child of flesh.

[Source: Wikipedia]

ang sad diba? listen to it!

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i also rediscovered this.



makes me want to cry. =,(