Late Monday jeezy

... uhh, yeah. Whatever that means.

Anyhoo, just saw this tonight. It's flooded my Facebook wall. My love affair with Bruno Mars' music started last year when I heard Marry You.

This, The Lazy Song, is my second most favorite track. I was bumming at my mom's room in Dumaguete doing absolutely nothing and just listening to this when I fell in love with the track. So first this song. Then this video. Purrfect!

just a feel good song!

ciao!

feeling nostalgic

nostalgic.

this has nothing to do with me.

ciao!

can i have this dance

i can't decide which version is better. i have not heard the original version (thank god... and partly because i want to have their version as my lss haha) and i have not seen the movie. but the song i think is nice.

this is singingdork and esnathesinger's version

i like the girl's voice here - full and powerful but with just the right amount of softness and fragility. parang sarah bareilles meets demi lovato ang dating.
yung sa guy naman, buong buo yung tunog. his voice is like michael buble singing the blues. ewan ko lang.
solid din yung harmony nila, mejo malakas lang yung sa girl pero maganda pa rin ang labas.

this is jenniferjchung and gabebondoc's version

ganda ng harmony nila dito - parehong napaka-delicate ng atake. it's as if they're just talking here na may harmony.
both their voices are pang acoustic talaga. their voices are the type that you'd just want to hear on a long drive home on a lazy sunday afternoon. define mushy and light-hearted haha.

o well, yun lang. na inspire lang ulit nanaman ako. bow. don't worry, i won't be posting any singing videos of myself here (though really tempted to do so haha).
pero come to think of it, wala namang nagbabasa nito (i know :) ) so i just might hahahaha.

ciao!

i will come home

Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see.
All of your fears will pass away.

how do you feel?

i feel:

I'm trying to change to make the best, for us
But I'm just the same same as I ever was

Oh and if you stay with me honestly it's what I want
But if you stay with me I know I'll hurt you more

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself
it's only my heart
Oh no

So tell me I'm wrong please won't you change, my mind
This loves so intense sometimes it can lead, you blind

Oh and if you stay with me honestly it's what I want
But if you stay with me I know I'll hurt you more

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself
It's only my heart save yourself

And I don't want to let you go
But I know that it's the right thing to do baby
And I don't think I'm that strong
to say goodbye I don't wanna see you cry

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself

but still:

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
Well I'm not sure of my priorities
I've lost sight of where I'm meant to be
Like holy water washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand
You got to be the only one who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance I hope I can make it through
'Cause the only place that I want to be is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn
But if you're here with me I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
'Cause you are the only one who'll save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

my ipod

i bought my ipod last december of 2007 as a christmas present to myself. a few days after, i had buyer's remorse -- just 'cuz i wasn't really planning on buying one -- macky forced me. lol.

but after a few weeks, it's one of the things i can't leave behind -- together with my cellphone, watch, wallet, and hanky.

while i was charging, i saw all the songs and movies in my ipod. out of the 80G i have (the same size as my pc's hard drive now =( )...

17.99G audio
12.58G movies
114.8MB photos
293MB others

all that in a little over a year. as for my playlist, these have been the most played:

113 gravity by sara bareilles
98 i'm yours by jason mraz
94 lucky by jason mraz and colbie caillat
90 the man who can't be moved by the script
85 butterfly by jason mraz
83 make it mine by jason mraz
83 live high by jason mraz
82 one sweet love by sara bareilles
80 come round soon by sara bareilles
78 love for a child by jason mraz
77 morningside by sara bareilles

uhmm, yeah they're two/three of my favorite musicians. what didn't reflect there are songs by james blunt, alanis morisette, and frou frou/imogen heap.

well, that's all. sharing lang ulit.

ciao!

you make it real for me

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
Well I'm not sure of my priorities
I've lost sight of where I'm meant to be
Like holy water washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand
You got to be the only one who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance I hope I can make it through
'Cause the only place that I want to be is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn
But if you're here with me I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
'Cause you are the only one who'll save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

ciao

settling dust

it's sunday morning today and i feel just fine. the dust, i think, has finally settled and everything seems clear to me now. as old and as ordinary as everything is, so i feel fresh and excited about everything. dark greys are now becoming greens and reds and yellows -- bright becomes everything. in retrospect, i think sundays have always been my day.

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright sun shiny day

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I've been prayin' for
It's gonna be a bright sun shiny day

Look all around, there's nothin' but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin' but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright sun shiny day

i can see clearly now

so the year of the ox has come early for me. as a pig (the chinese zodiac ok?!), it has brought about renewed vigor, rejuvenation, revival, rebirth, o ang muling pagsilang.

ciao!

smoke

Leaf by Leaf page by page
Throw this book away
All the sadness all the rage
Throw this book away
Rip out the binding, tear the glue
All of the grief we never ever knew
We had it all along
Now its smoke
The things we've written in it
Never really happened
All of the people come and gone
Never really lived
All of the people have come have gone
No one to forgive smoke
We will never write a new one
There will not be a new one
Another one, another one
Here's an evening dark with shame
Throw it on the fire
here's the time I took the blame
Throw it on the fire
Here's the time we didn't speak
it seemed for years and years
Here's a secret
No one will ever know
the reasons for the tears
They are smoke
Where do all the secrets live
They travel in the air
You can smell them when they burn
They travel
Those who say the past is not dead
Stop and smell the smoke
You keep on saying the past is not dead
Come on and smell the smoke
You keep saying the past is not even past
You keep saying
We are, smoke

ciao!

flavors of entanglement

because music is my saviour and alanis is a demi-god with india arie as her headpiece and mika, her jester, i give you life in cartoon motion with flavors of entanglement, and you know that's the heart of the matter.

(turn off my site's sound on the right panel)

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
-- the heart of the matter

I've never let my grasp soften fingers like this...
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
-- moratorium

These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
-- versions of violence

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"
-- not as we

am dancing with my friends in elation
We’ve taken adventures to new levels of fun
I can feel the bones are smiling in my body
I can see the meltings of inhibition
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
-- giggling for no reason

I am someone easy to leave
Even easier to forget
A voice, If inaccurate
Again, I’m the one they all run from
Diatribes of clouded Sun
Someone help me find the pause Button
-- tapes

One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy
-- incomplete

These are things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
-- torch

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in
-- any other world

Don't let the stars get you down.
Don't let the waves let you drown.
Brown...Oh Billy Brown.
Gonna pick you up like a paper cup.
Gonna shake the water out of every nook.
Oh Billy Brown.
-- billy brown

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together...
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
-- happy endings

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.
-- my interpretation

flavors of entanglement is alanis' newest album after her breakup from ryan reynolds. it's not the alanis i'm used to - with some electric and synth tracks (moratorium). rather, this album speaks more of (her) grief than angst.
life in cartoon motion left me speechless because it was one of the most played albums in my ipod. but it is just this week that i actually "heard" the songs' lyrics. it baffled me, but after a few seconds of disbelief, i loved it even more.
india arie is india arie. this is a cover, though, of don henley's (eagles) song. but i like her version better.

ciao!

sick

cycle carousel.


I tried to climb your steps,
I tried to chase you down,
I tried to see how low I could get to down to the ground,
I tried to earn my way,
I tried to change this mind,
You better believe that I tried to beat this.
When will this end, it goes on and on
Over, and over, and over again.
Keep spinning around I know it won't stop,
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
I never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this,
I guess I was wrong
Now one more time

if i ever lose my faith in you

i was riding the MRT on the way home and sting was on my ipod. the melody is so nostalgic and the lyrics are reminiscent of the good ole days. search for the lyrics.

music of the moment

adele
chasing pavements

Ive made up my mind, dont need to think it over
if im wrong i am right, dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love

but if i tell the world, i'll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up and fly around in circles
waiting as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

or should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep on chasing pavements
should i just keep on chasing pavements

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there
should i give up
or should i just keep on
chasing, pavements
should i just keep on
chasing, pavements

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

ciao!

dance with my father again

dance with my father again

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end

How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream


i just heard this play on the tv the other night. i thought the lyrics was ________.
enjoy.

angels

I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we’re grey and old
’cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I’m lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call
she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

When I’m feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I’ll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call
she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

i want this angel NOW!

same ground

My love,Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.Its hard leaving you that way when
I never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
Its strange i never would've
wanted if until there was you.

Because i have learned that love is beyond
what human can imagine,
the more it clears the more i have to let you go.

that's why i don't understand is why im feeling
so bad now when i know it was my idea.
i could've just denied the truth and
lied. but why am i the only one standing stranded
on the same ground?

Because i have learned that love is a
word gets thrown a little bit too much.
the best excuse to fill the infinite abyss
i have never have to if all else fail

If all else fail, would you be there to love me?
If all else fail, would you be brave to see right
through me?

... so true

... i'm feeling alright now

two great songs

two great songs of romance

mysterious ways
julia fordham

Who'd have thought this is how the pieces fit
You and I shouldn't even try making sense of it
I forgot how we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons but I don't know what they are
Don't blame it on my heart, oh

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Heaven knows love is just a chance we take
We make plans but then love demands a leap of faith
So hold me close and never never let me go
'Cos even though we think we know which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no

Like the ticking of a clock two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand the way it's done, oh
Love moves... in mysterious ways....


by your side
sade

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that
Think I'd leave you down
When you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you're wrong
Ah, ah, ah, oh, oh, oh, oh
And if only you could see into me
Ohh, when you're coldI'll be there
Hold you tight to me
When you're on the outside
Baby, and you can't get in
I would show you
You're so much better than you know
When you're lost, you're alone
Can't get back again
I will find you
Darlin' and I'll bring you home
And if you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes (ooh)
You know time
You'll be fine
You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that
Think I'd leave you down
When you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you're wrong
Ah, ah, ah, ah, oh, oh, oh
And if only you could see into me
Ohh, when you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me
Ohh, when you're alone
I'll be there
By your side, baby
Ohh, when you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me
Ohh, when you're alone
I'll be there
By your side, baby

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just came from last night, hell, the whole night's partying in macky's house. it was fun, i was supposed to go home by 2 but i decided to stay on. all my friend's were there, save for peter. dammit, peter, where are you? choir? again? well anyway, like i said, it was fun. i need not put everything here, but the pictures (coming in the next coupla days) will surely talk about the night we had in the barkada's tambayan *sniff, sniff* (god i miss those days) right macky?! *wink wink*

ciao!

dont know why

dont know why

I waited 'til I saw the sun

I don't know why I didn't come

I left you by the house of fun

I don't know why I didn't come

I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day

I wished that I could fly away

Instead of kneeling in the sand

Catching tear drops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine

You'll be on my mind

Forever

Out across the endless sea

I would die in ecstasy

But I'll be a vagabond

Driving down the road alone

My heart is drenched in wine

You'll be on my mind

Forever

Something has to make you run

I don't know why I didn't come

I feel as empty as a drum

I don't know why I didn't come

yeah i don't know why i didn't come
sad...
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flip flop madness

oggling flip-flops...

havaiannas. i dunno why those cute (overpriced) and comfy(overrated) things can cost so much. and just a few days ago, i was able to find a way to get those flip flops for a bargain. its too good to be true. so i ordered 2 pairs of it. yesterday, it turned out to be too good to be true. i almost had a feeling before that it would somehow turn out that way but i brushed it aside (remember those celphones before? smuggled? half the price?) but it came around. and bit me. rawRr!

madness...

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what else is new?

so what else is new? aside from sunod sunod na quizes and 3 undone papers and recitations and reports on the side, well nothing's new. well ive been spending a lot lately and whats worse is, ive got really nothing to spend. whew. that was weird. but somehow, i spend almost 200 a day. spare the weekends where i spend a whopping (for me) 500. dammit.

and oh, do i need to mention that im so sick of school that i miss a whole week of my major subject? kidding, we were off for a week. thats good news. honestly, im getting tired of it all. like i said, papers etc. its sad... pathetic kinda sad...

ok lets break the monotony of sadness... (only 2)PICTURES!!!

ME, jd and rap

spot the iranian... WRONG! hehe..

this was from migs party last sat. thanks to jayran.. hehe..

ciao!