wala lang

wala lang

rest day ko ngayon. ang boring. dapat kasi iinom kami lahat sa bahay ko ngayon pero hindi na rin natuloy dahil busy-busyhan ang lahat. bukas baka pumunta ako kung saan para naman bumili ng para sakin. wala pa kong nabibili para sakin simula ng sumweldo ako eh.

hmmm. napaisip ako kahapon. di ko alam kung maiinggit ako dahil wala akong special someone o matutuwa ako dahil nagagawa ko lahat ng gusto ko. di ko alam kung maiinggit ako dahil may pinagkakaabalahan ang mga may special someone o matutuwa ako dahi lahat ng oras ko ay para lang sakin. hmmm.

anyway, picture ulit tayo.

nuff said.

after work stress

and in starbucks

hotel lobby after party

ciao!

can't sleep

can't sleep

dammit. i slept at around 6pm so that i can wake up at 3:30 in the morning. but it's just 2 and i can't sleep anymore. ah my fucked up body clock. rather, my fucked up schedule. my shift is now from 5am to 2pm. now, how the hell am i supposed to stay awake until that time? tell me.

anyway last saturday was our graduation day from our training. here are some pics.

the girls were naughty even before the game started

da boys

me, carla, and mark

the naughty games

cha, vin, and me

julian aka wangbu

ciao!

scared shitless

scared shitless

yeah, that's the word. just a few seconds ago, right after logging in to this journal, i felt an intense pain in my chest and upper back. i know it has something to do with my lungs because i can't breathe properly. it's almost like i've run a couple of miles and my heart is beating fast because of the fear of feeling something strange happenning inside you. that's weird and freaky and scary.
i stared at the monitor for a while and listened to my own breathing. really scary.

cut down na kasi, you jerk!

random thoughts

random thoughts

tonight is beautiful. everything seems to be all pleasant and endearing. for the longest time also, i'm hearing crickets. i like the smell when it rains. i like the slow pour of the rain. i love the gentle blowing of the wind. i like how the leaves in the trees in front of my terrace slowly bend with the wind. i love how time seems to be so slow during these nights. i like the fact that i am now able to wear something over my body other than my boxers. i love how cool and crisp everything is tonight.

+++++++

my officemates and i went out last night for a dinner at northpark and a drink at gutsy's beside metrowalk in ortigas which turned out to be all night long. the night turned into day and we found ourselves in eastwood trying the Php80 breakfast buffet. the morning turned into noon and we found ourselves in the middle of greenhills looking for something to buy. haay. it's good to be with these guys. they are all game. walang nagiinarte, walang nagpapaspecial, wala ring nagmamarunong. astig.

+++++++

i'm having the worst attitude today. i know that i'll get cough and colds because i can already feel my throat sore. but what the fuck. i'm still grabbing a fag every now and then. as much as i would like to think that i've got this under control, i really think this time, i'm losing it.

it's 2am and i'll be up until 9ish. i'm doing my laundry now. yun lang po.

ciao!

a surprising surprise

a surprising surprise

after work yesterday, my officemates and i had a coupla beers over billiards and some really manly stories. got home around 9 in the morning and tried to sleep.
almost three hours of restlessly rolling and changing positions on the bed, someone rang the doorbell. and you guys know how my doorbell sounds - its this really irritating kind of sound. more like a buzzer. yes, a buzzer. i thought yuri was drunk and was too lazy to get his keys inside his bag so i tried hard to close my eyes again. five more successions of buzzes and i hid my head under the pillows. honeybunch was already barking loudly. then five successions turned to ten.

i had to get up.

i was ready to bop yuri on his head when i open the door. being groggy and all, i opened the door. outside stood macky.
macky: "may friend akong dala"
i didn't know if i should still continue my big plan of brain smashing.
macky: (pointing to the direction unseen to me) "come!"
then i saw rr.

dammit!

although i'm aware that he's been gone for quite a number of months already, i still feel like he is just here. during that moment, that is.

me: "hi....."

then i continued my way up leaning left and right. damn i was so sleepy. my head hurt. my eyes burnt. they were all telling stories and i was only lucid after quite a few minutes. well, right after rr handed me his pasalubong of.... what else? flip-flops! it's a barkada thing. (enp, remember the time when we first bought our barkada flip-flops in human?! lol) ok now i'm stopping this. hehe.

ciao!

being phoenix

being phoenix

my gulay it's been long i know. i've been so busy with work. well, not really busy. it's just that i'm hardly ever finding time for myself. i'm guilty of missing those emo moments i usually have when i have lots of time with myself hehe.

so anyway, i'm finally done with my client's specifics training. and i think i know what to do already. i think. whatever. tomorrow we'll find out.

in other news, i got accepted for a management trainee position in rustans. i don't know if i'll take it. i'm already settling in the company i'm working for right now and i think i'm going to have fun there. it's just that i'm having difficulty accepting that i work there already. let's just say i'm eating my own words. haay.

in other, other news. mom's moving to chicago. *wink wink*

well anyway let's get to the point of you're being here. pictures. these are old though. been sitting at my desktop for quite some time now.

anyway enjoy.

we went to a spanish restaurant (i forgot the name) and i ate this.

my server hehe.

st. paul university the next morning for nikko's family day.

gotcha! caught this kid peeing in the bushes right after a game. l-0-l!

phoebe right after "the talk" of her staying there. for. ever. lol!

dumaguete cathedral


mom and jamie

flower vendors. love em.

ciao!