random ulit

maybe it's alright to feel this way. i should allow myself to be in this situation para hindi masyadong stressed.

seseryosohin na kita. i see a good future.

ang tagal ng sweldo. pero most of it, pambayad utang. pero ok pa din.

sa ngayon, 100% ng inis ko, dahil sayo.

"ano, tara! game na!"

nakakatuwang magka-kras.

i have yet to figure you out. if, in any way, i find a hole... ATAAAACCKK!!! lol!!

sleepy.

random

i was absent today

i feel like i made the wrong choice

i have to give it time

i feel like i'm in a limbo

nahihirapan na ko sayo

mahirap iwan at kalimutan ang mga bagay bagay

i still choose to be optimistic about things

i have to give it time

i can't entertain those thoughts

of training

naisip ko lang, pag trainer ka, di ka pwedeng pikon. di ka rin pwedeng tatanga tanga. at mas lalong di ka pwedeng sumungit. dahil hindi lang isa ang makakalaban mo, taena buong class.

pag maingay ang class, di ka pwedeng mag-maldita. wag kang babanat agad ng "i deserve some respect." tae. malamang lahat naman ng tao deserves our respect, kahit sino pa yan. bilang trainer, trabaho mong makibagay sa ugali nila. sakyan mo ang sense of humor nila. talk in their interest. never antagonize a trainee. kung titira ka, i-address mo sa pangkalahatan tapos wag mo masyadong gawin seryoso. maiintindihan na yun ng mga trainees mo.

eh kung bigla kang magagalit, wala na. sira na ang diskarte mo. pati na rin ang interes sayo ng trainees mo. pano pa sila makikinig sayo?

oo nga't proseso ang dini-discuss mo. mahaba yan, paulit-ulit, mapalabok, minsan kumplikado, pero hindi ibig sabihin nun, papatayin mo sa boredom ang trainees mo. yung tipong isang pilik-mata na lang ang bumubuka sa mata nila. tae.

lalong lalo na, wag kang magagalit pag nagkakaroon ng diskusyon. ibig sabihin, nagtatanong sila sa isa't isa. therefore, interesado silang malaman kung ano man ang sinasabi mo. sakyan mo yun. gamitin mo ang ingay nila sa lalo pang pagpapaintindi sa kanila ng punto ng sinasabi mo.

when you work with marketing/sales people, don't expect a boring bunch of people who only speak when spoken, too. tangena hindi yan mga accountants o clerks, no offense meant. mga maiingay na tao yan, madaming iniisip, minsan nagsasalita na bago magisip. trabaho mo bilang tainer ang intindihin ang mga iyon.

oo, hindi ka trainer. pero pucha, sana naman marunong ka namang makibagay at umintindi. kahit dun na lang. para yun lang, may drama nang, "i deserve some respect." ay na-leche na.

wala lang. thinking out loud lang.

ciao!

have i told you?

... that at an age of 26, and in almost five years of working, i was retired twice?

... that i still want another beach escapade after being in bohol and zambales in three weeks' time?

... that i try my hardest to be the bryan you want me to be? and that although it may not seem like it, it still hurts when i remember the things i'm supposed to forget?

... that i'm dreading working next week?

... that i miss my TDD family?

... that i desperately need/want a massage but i can't afford it now?

... that my finances are in the worst situation in years?

... that i'm thinking of backpacking for a few weeks with no cellphone?

... that you might have not noticed, but i try to blog less and less? less words, less moping, less feeling.

... that i have a backlog of three photo albums for me to upload on fb and multiply?

... that i beginning to think that this is not working out and it's not meant for me?

... that i should be sleeping but i find sleeping wasting precious vacation time so i go around looking for stuff to do online and in real life?

... that i'm on my last straw?

well i told you now.

ciao.