sa pusod ng dagat

sa pusod ng dagat

hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. malalim na ang gabi at bukas kailangan ko pang pumunta sa isang medical exam. na tetengga na ko sa bahay at nauubusan na ko ng gagawin. kasabay pa nun yung pagubos ng pera ko.

iniisip kong gumawa ulit ng tula kasi ang tagal ko nang hindi nakagawa. pero sisimulan ko pa lang, ubos na ang creative juices ko. parang hirap ako ngayong kumuha ng inspirasyon sa mga bagay bagay. siguro dahil nasa punto ako ng buhay ko na hindi ko talaga alam ang mga susunod na mangyayari. yung parang tahimik lahat. yung nakakatakot ng tahimik kasi parang may nagbabadya. gusto ko ring simulan na ang pagaaral sa mga sining na matagal ko nang ikinubli. ewan ko. siguro hindi pa ngayon ang takdang panahon.

segue lang: bakit kapag nagsusulat ako sa filipino, 'di ko maiwasang maging malalim. kahit na pilitin kong maging mababaw at conversational lamang ang aking mga salita nagiging madrama at maarte. o 'wag ka nang humirit. rhetorical quesiton yun.

matagal na kong naghihintay sa isang trabahong mailap. yung isang trabahong kaya ko, gusto ko, mahal ko, pinagaralan ko, at mahal ko. pangalawa nalamang ang sahod sa akin. pero ang laging kumakatok ay iyong mga matataas ang sweldo pero di ko talaga gusto. humihingi na rin ako ng isang pahiwatig mula sa itaas. pero wala pa rin. alam ko namang hindi sa aking panahon ang panahon Niya eh. kaya eto ako naghihintay pa rin. siguro napapagod lang ako maghintay at kumilos na ko para magsimulang gumulong ang buhay ko patungo sa mga gusto ko.

sige, sa susunod na linggo, malalaman ko ang nakatakda sa akin. bilang ko ang buwan na itatagal ko dun: tatlong buwan.

ciao!

bday mommy

happy birthday mommy!

i love you forever! mwah mwah mwah!

Sana’y di nagmaliw ang dati kong araw
Nang munti pang bata sa piling ni nanay
Nais kong maulit ang awit ni inang mahal
Awit ng pag-ibig habang ako’y nasa duyan

Sana’y di nagmaliw ang dati kong araw
Nang munti pang bata sa piling ni nanay
Nais kong maulit ang awit ni inang mahal
Awit ng pag-ibig habang ako’y nasa duyan


Sa aking pagtulog na labis ang himbing
Ang bantay ko’y tala, ang tanod ko’y bituin
Sa piling ni nanay, langit ay buhay
Puso kong may dusa sabik sa ugoy ng duyan

Sana’y di nagmaliw ang dati kong araw
Nang munti pang bata sa piling ni nanay
Nais kong maulit ang awit ni inang mahal
Awit ng pag-ibig habang ako’y nasa duyan

Sa aking pagtulog na labis ang himbing
Ang bantay ko’y tala, ang tanod ko’y bituin
Sa piling ni nanay, langit ay buhay
Puso kong may dusa sabik sa ugoy ng duyan

Nais kong matulog sa dating duyan ko, inay
Oh! inay

bday jang

happy birthday janna!

love you forever sis! mwah mwah mwah!

anonymous

anonymous strikes again

first of all, i think my previous post was addressed to someone much powerful and much more intelligent than my anonymous commenter.

second of all, if you have noticed any wrong grammar in my posts, my apologies. i have no excuse whatsoever. we are all second learners of the english language.

what's laughable is your keen sense of determination to really pore through my text just to find mistakes. but if you feed on other's weakness just to artificially inflate your (mis)perception of how good you are, then please, be my guest.

by the way, if you are still in a mood to copyread my text, please send me your corrected pieces through my e-mail [reyes_fb@yahoo.com]. i will really appreciate it if you do. however, i can't promise you that i'll think you have a life. AND i promise, your name will be kept confidential.

pray

pray with me

lord, from the moment i was born you were there for me. i ask you now to be with me again to look for a job that is perfect for me; not with my standards but with yours. as i have been all yours during my college years, i will be yours again as this new beginning unfolds. thy will be done.

you know the desires of my heart and i know that you will give them to me in your own time.
teach me to be patient lord. because right now, my patience is slowly fading away. rekindle my flame lord.

this i humbly ask of your everlasting love, grace, and providence.

AMEN

dumaguete cathedral

bleep

bleep

ok first i'm sorry! haha should've cut my entries when i posted pictures. ok for those of you who still want to view the pics i post, i'll just give you my lj account the next time i post. BUT IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME HOW TO CUT ENTRIES HERE IN BLOGSPOT, I WILL REALLY APPRECIATE IT AND I'D KISS YOU!

well anyway, there's one thing that's bugging me since the last month. and it's regarding the job i'm going to take.

i guess even before i graduate, i swore to myself that i would never take a call center job. yeah, you guessed right. i'm taking it. but it's only because there are NO OTHER OPTIONS. i mean, graduating from la salle is one thing, getting a job is another. so i decided that rather than just being a bum, i'd rather earn money for myself and spare my mother from giving me money already. sheesh i'm so old to take allowances for her. fyi i'm 22. i've got to take the bitter pill. well, like my soulee told me, everyone's gotta start somewhere. i just hope that it doesn't start AND END here.

in other news, i've been really slow lately. i mean literally slow. for some reason, everything seems to be in a haze and i'm here in the middle of it trying to get some direction very, very, VERY slowly. dang.

so the other day i bought 2 books for only Php150. beat that! before, i would just look at the books that i like on display in national bookstore and sometimes in some posh bookstores. well, i've got a new bestfriend - book sale. it's the name of the store yeah. i'm finishing foucault's pendelum by umberto eco and i don't wanna be caught dead without anything to read before i go to sleep. bought damascus gates for 140. and the other the beauty and the priest for 10! i just got the beauty because i thought i'd get a novel for a bargain. haha. not. when i got home it was a priest's recollection of what happened to him when he met this woman. it was more like of a self-help and advice kind of book. darn. i'm not a priest by the way.

i gotta go and i hope i'll leave you with something nice to look at.

dumaguete pics 3

feb 3 & 4

the day was spent at home. it was relaxing because i got a full body massage. by the way

posing for a pic this early in the morning really didn't make me happy

then i loosened up

then we all did


this is one progression of poses that you so want to get on film, though in my case, digital camera.

POSE#1
POSE#2
POSE#3

by afternoon, we headed for the beach.

i love this picture of my three cousins

tita guing said this was candid. didn't think so.

by night time, i was able to capture a lizard eating a dragonfly which was almost twice his size.


phoebe and ari posed for their very first photo shoot. look what photoshop can do.



the next day was the party look at the lechon.

GOING...
GOING...

GONE.

they like to pose... a lot.

ciao!

feb2

february 2

got out of the house to get a motorcycle for our uncle

all the traffic's that's dumaguete aka biker boys

when we got home

tito toto

tita doll's vanity shot

tita doll and mommy

my second best friend in dumaguete

gawk

ari and i

later again

bullfight

BULLFIGHT!

click free and they will give you a number then you can wait for the download

dumaguete 2

and again

january 31

the house

zoom x4.0

i played with my new toy and produced lots of pictures of the beach, the rocks and my cousins in a short span of time. good thing jamie brought his laptop with him and i was able to upload all my pictures even before my memory card became full.

february 1

we went to the livestock auction about 20 kilometers away from the city. the place was like taken straight out of discovery's lonely planet.


the place was a market-ful of people haggling for prices with tiny notebooks and pens. some were dragging their animals up for barter or sale and some were like us, just speculating and watching things. finally we got the pig and headed home.

50 goats that were stuck together in a small truck

mad cows

i actually have a video of these cows bull fighting each other. i'm just trying to find a way for some website to host it.

lechon man = pig killer

and babe did not live happily ever after

the tale tail of our dinner pig

ms. danggit

road kill

uber laugh trip!!

i played with the pig with my foot and whuddya know, the pig loved it and layed on its back making weird pig noises.

dinner

we headed home after the pig thing. went to the cemetery afterwards.

if you look hard enough, you'll know what mommy's holding

i snuck inside the room and took this picture. i've never taken a pic of someone this intent on reading

then we went to the mall to get a rack for the glasses. then headed back home again to change for the gimmick night... with parents.

my bestfriend that night

bling bling!

mom, tita guing and lola doing a janna pout

the band was playing loud that night when suddenly NO LIGHTS! blackout throughout the city. or just the boulevard i guess. time for some vanity pictures by the candle.

funny thing about this picture. ari ordered (i hope i had not known) a margarita and some cocktail. (his mother, tita guing, was so bent on not letting ari drink something alcoholic that night) then after that, he ordered water. he placed the calamansi in the water intentionally. then i took this picture. and tita guing thought that ari was drinking!(which was partly true) and she gave us all a lecture about ari drinking the night after. hahahahahaha!

ok. tomorrow's another day.

ciao!