it struck again

my hyperacidity that is.

i was just planning to watch my series last night when my back began to ache. i knew it too well. that's how my second attack started -- back ache, hurt in all positions, cold sweats, shortness of breath.

then it started.

i decided to just sit and wait for it to subside. it started at around 11:30 until i was too tired and went to bed at 5 in the morning with my stomach still hurting.

i didn't want to rush myself in the ER this time. i don't have health coverage yet.

it sucks. and most of all it hurt.

a delayed greeting

i forgot that last june 28 is my blog's 6th year.

wow.

i never keeping something up this long for *this* long. to think i'm doing this for nothing.

happy 6th year manokchicken!

basiang and the brownout

what i hate most about brownouts is that my thoughts seem to have a life and a voice of their own -- and a loud one at that. =/

dami kong naiisip. pati yung mga dapat hindi dapat iniisip.

sa totoo lang, namimiss na kita. pero kasabay nun yung mga bagay na dapat nang kalimutan.

bahala na.

the thing is

... paulit ulit lang. in a short span of time, balik nanaman sa dating gawi. ayoko na ng ganun. nakakapagod. nakakapagod na rin ni mag-isip tungkol dun.

ako na lang lagi ang may problema. ako na lang parati ang dapat magbigay. ako na lang parati ang dapat umintindi. ako na lang ang laging may sayad. ako na lang lagi. there's a lot of "you should have's" or "you could have's."

this time, i think i know what i want. i'm not sure about the consequences. i think someone will get hurt. the thing is, if i continue with this, someday, someone will eventually get hurt. it's just prolonging the inevitable.

so. for the last time, i'll do what i do best (and you can consider this as the last), it's my fault. i take the blame. i take the responsibility. have a happy life.

random

so, last night, my pc finally broke. i almost killed myself. but it's done a great and noble job of keeping me sane and occupied for the last 8 years. yeah, that's purrty old for a pc.

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it's my boss's first day last monday =/ i dunno what to feel exactly. i just feel... restrained.

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globe tech support is really useless. i talked to two tech reps again and both of them were just too giddy to get me off the phone to save their fucking AHT's. it's so freakin easy for them to say we-can-no-longer-do-anything-about-it-so-we'll-send-a-technician-instead.

and when you ask them when the standard reply is we-don't-have-a-time-frame-just-wait-for-our-call.

and when i tell them that no one has ever contacted me they'd go i'd-be-on-top-of-this-sir-i'll-file-this-(really stoooopid)-report-and-follow-this-up-personally.

MY ASS!

the second one, i literally had to DIRECT him on how to help me. i was the one with suggestions (being the one who always HAVE TO call them for technical problems) and i managed to solve my own fuckin problem without their help. or their home service technicians. dumb fucks.

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i'm welcoming the change sa work. dapat nang magpayaman. kung yayaman man ako dito.

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gusto ko pa, pero pagod na ko. i don't think i CAN anymore.

the gift

They say big things come in small packages.
Small package: The gift.
Big thing: The thought, the effort, and the gesture behind the gift.


Along with this small token is the video of their messages of thanks (which I have to figure out how to convert so I can upload).
Thank you Batch 26. It's the small things that I love most about this job. Good luck and God bless you all.