the best way to forget is to remember.
pu. tang. ina.

curiosity will kill the cat.

i binge

when i'm tired, i binge. when i'm frustrated, i binge. when i'm annoyed, i binge. when i'm lonely, i binge. when i'm happy, i binge. when i'm irritated, i binge. when i feel helpless, i binge.

binge, binge, binge, binge, binge, binge.

i think this week was the record of all records in my life. last monday, i finished a bag of ruffles and a bag of doritos. i also ate a bag of tostitos, made my own cheese dip, two cup noodles, 2 500ml bottles of green tea, bread (lots of it), mayo (lots and lots of it), almost 3 liters of juice, a bag of lays, 2 packs of eaji sour cream, a pack of chips ahoy, 2 cartons of milk, and that's as far as i can remember. pukinanginangshiyetpanciteatingmaderhamper!

so how exactly do i feel this week?

nauseated.

... naman, hear me out --frou frou

MY sunday

today, i decided to have a totally me-time. today is all about me. i did not worry about my laundry, my bills, how my apartment looks like, how everything seems to be on the floor, my dentist, my life.
after quite a few weeks, i finally allowed myself to breathe again. it's scary, at first, because it seems like i'm treading unknown waters. but as before, i finally got my rhythm and it felt natural again.
a part of me still wants to hold on to what life has been for me a few weeks back. i think i should embrace that, too.
i'm still hopeful. i'm not frightened, it's unbearable. but i also know that faith shouldn't be blind. that i don't threaten it by asking questions, i make it stronger.
i'm blabbering and you won't understand.

so ciao!

congratulations bryan, this is your 400th post!

are you silenced?

but a revolution nonetheless.

mamatay ka sa inis.
^_^

february song

Where is that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes.

Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away

Sometimes it's hard to find my ground
Cos I keep on falling as I try to get
away from this crazy world

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away

And all that I've lost and found
I promise you I'll come back to you
One day

Where is that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes,
opens his eyes

this, pala, is the lyrics of the melody i was humming the whole day. finally i remember a few lines and i googled it. it's one of josh groban's tracks in his awake album.

the james blunt affair

i've just been to the james blunt concert.

THE james blunt!

if you still haven't figured it out yet, i love love love james blunt's music. for the depressed, melodramatic, and emo guy that i am, his music stands out.
actually early this morning, i wan't really sure if i'd be able to go since no one wants to go with me because:

1. they only know two songs of him - you're beautiful and goodbye my lover
2. his songs are overly depressing
3. they're not really into music
4. wouldn't wanna spend 400 bucks for gen ad (common! i was willing to go THAT far just to watch him)
5. theyhe suddenly had something to do. hmpf!

anyway, at around 3pm today, i was already decided to go. rr and gerry accompanied me. again, i'm sorry to both of you if i seem a little bit out of my self since i was really singingshouting the whole time. COME ON! i know the lyrics to his song by heart! haha.

before i went there, i was actually preparing myself to be disappointed because of the way he would sometimes become a little too throaty when singing. and my gawd was i wrong. ganun pala talaga boses niya. and he can sustain his style all through out. was i surprised? yes. was i amazed? yes and no - because his live singing is the same as his recorded singing. wonderful.
another thing: he sang all of my favorite songs! goodness. i don't have to enumerate because they're all here in my blog. he sang "i really want you" in the most authentic and most depressing/fulfilling way - the light strumming of the guitars, the controlled, almost crying voice, the perfectly paced tempo - everything was perfect. i love it.

plus, he surprised the audience by literally running on them! kamon! he shoved each and every person who came across his way. if i were one of them, i would be happy to be one of his road kills. i have a video to prove it! haha. here!

he was that white speck of dot running through the audience hehe sorry phone cam!

anyway, that's it for now. i'll be uploading some more tomorrow after my dentist. gaaah. fuckers. hahahaha.

ps. we paid for upper box but sat on the lower box area. hihihi.

ciao!

a love story

you
me
eternity
damned.

malinta, malinta, i would never want to go back

for the first time in more than two weeks, i felt really physically and mentally exhausted -- the convention ended last wednesday, had to report for work last thursday and attend class till 10pm. aaaanndd, yesterday, still not recovered from this week's stress, tin and i went to malinta to conduct a seminar as part of our greater metro manila roadshow. geez, i have never been there at all in my whole entire life and i never knew that it's just so freaking far from civilization!! travel time was about an hour and a half going there and almost two hours back.

after the seminar, we didn't know how to get back home. so we just waited on the street for a bus. after quite a few minutes, tin and i decided to walk towards the intersection where there might be buses.
while walking for a few seconds, i told tin to watch out for buses that might come from behind as we were walking towards where the supposed buses were heading. i was still finishing my sentence when we both looked back and shouted "AYUUUUNNNN BUSSSS!!!!!!!!!"
right behind the first bus was another second bus and we both shouted again, "AYUUN PAAA!!!"
i don't know if it was just sheer happiness or stress but we were laughing so hard because of our reaction even until we got inside the bus and found our seats. lols.

so what to do with exhaustion? file my leave. well, technically it's not counted as a leave. rather, an offset for the one day i went to work last february.
what's better is, since my family is coming back to manila this june i have saved up enough offsets to consume for more than 1 week because of the overtime days i have from the previous event. the only thing is, i might not want to stay that long in dumaguete for more than 3 days. gaah.

...dali na kasi

thumbs down for hotel sofitel

as part of the media committee, we had to do an ocular inspection in hotel sofitel. we had two contacts in that hotel, lesly and edwin, both i think are account managers. (if only i have their last names, i would have gladly posted it here as well)
prior to going there, we had to call them first because we had to set up a date and we had to ask them about a lot of things that our committee is concerned with (tarpaulins, media coverage, standees, photo walls, etc.).

booboo number 1: lesly and edwin are very hard to contact. either they're not in their respective offices or they just wouldn't answer their cellphones.

finally, we were able to set up a date for the ocular with lesly. we finally got there and she showed us around the hotel while we look for certain spots for us to consider. she was ok but not outrageously nice - just like how people behind the reception of every respectable hotel are. thing is, for every question that we ask, it's either she's not sure if we can do that or she has to check first or it's not allowed. what the hell is that? she does sales for chrissakes! she should be able to answer us concretely. i mean i understand that she just wanted to make sure and she'd rather say it now than apologize for it later. but NOT FOR EVERY SINGLE QUESTION/REQUEST/INQUIRY THAT WE HAVE!

in the end, we got nothing from them except a lot of "you-can't-do-that" and "i'm not sure, i'll check first."
so the three of us who went there just gave up and just looked around. as if we haven't already seen it before.

booboo number 2: edwin answers the calls but does not reply.

i have tried calling edwin about our tarpaulins since they do not permit sticking things on their walls, which i completely understand. but they have no other option for us except what has been mentioned earlier by lesly about the aluminum poles where we can hang things - which was not actually confirmed by any of them.
after a lot of attempts to speak to edwin to confirm it, he only said in a condescending voice, "ok na nga ho sir. provided na po yun. hanapin niyo na lang yung mga tao ko dun."
what the hell? save me please! first, isn't he the one who's supposed to assist us in all these? what the hell do we know about his "mga tao?" second, he does not have to use that will-you-stop-asking-me-questions-already tone with me. fucker.

booboo number 3: lesly on day 1 of event.

while we were just done installing the photo op wall which cost us 3k, she suddenly felt the need to voice out her opinions about it: whether it won't work because we'll be blocking the exit or we would create traffic or the hallway is too small or the many other reasons she has. COME ON! since the day of the ocular inspection i specifically told her that the photo op wall would be placed there. i just want to backhand her pa-cute face and fake accent and roll up the tarpaulin and shove it in her hole. she just would. not. shut. up.
even my colleague got fed up with her too.
and just for your information, the photo op wall did great because we 'funneled' each attending delegate for us to take their red carpet picture - both of which were actually our intention thank you very much.

booboo number 4: requests are always as hard as getting legislation passed in the senate.

we requested for red carpets - they don't have enough.
we requested for stantions (posts with ropes) - they wanted to provide us with 4. the photo wall was almost 20 feet long. hello.
we requested from the hotel staff to put up the 4m x 10m tarpaulin outside the hotel - they sent us 1 waiter.

geez. there are still a lot of things that we can complain about these two. and i'm not the only one.
i'm sure the management has plenty of staff who can represent their hotel but instead, they send us these two who are just plain idiots and lack a lot customer service.


i even did an experiment: while wearing our company shirt (plain round-neck tee with the company logo) and committee ID, i spoke to them in the vernacular. the hotel staff's reactions were either arrogant or just plain dumb. the complete opposite happened when i spoke to them in straight english while wearing my formal attire.
so tell me, do they typecast people as to how they should and would react? booo.

thumbs down hotel sofitel philippine plaza.
and just for a little history lesson, we were one of your biggest clients in 2003 (this was published mind you) back when it was still under westin philippine plaza. so why treat us this way now?

something better than my usual

i guess i deserve a pat on the back because i am developing a higher tolerance for the people that has been getting on my nerves recently.
i am especially proud, too, because amidst all the stress, worry, pressure, and exhaustion, i did not break during the event. *claps*
the reason is sometimes, when i'm really irritated and pressured, i can really get abrasive and sometimes abusive. thank god it didn't happen this time. i mean there were quite a handful of people who got pissed with each other and happily, i was not one of them. i'm still sarcastic, though. that's normal. hahaha.
i assume smiling a lot (even if forced) and taking things lighter than what they already are helps a lot during these times.

beer anyone?

randomness

do you remember the feeling you had right after some big event when everything has settled down and everything seems to have fallen into place but you're still in a rush because your adrenaline's still high but all you can hear is nothing but the deafening silence?

yes, withdrawal.

for the love of god, please, i need to be running around again, i seriously need to be busy. not the routinary kind of busy but something new-busy. ok?

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the philippine atmospheric, geophysical and astronomical services administration of the philippines (oha oha!) or PAGASA has just officially announced the start of the wet season.

i think they're wrong. it's been nothing but dry spell for me.

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i smell something brewing. i can almost taste the tension between you two. so just for all our sakes, STOP IT ALREADY. it's not nice anymore and it's getting old.

music of the moment

adele
chasing pavements

Ive made up my mind, dont need to think it over
if im wrong i am right, dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love

but if i tell the world, i'll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up and fly around in circles
waiting as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

or should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep on chasing pavements
should i just keep on chasing pavements

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there
should i give up
or should i just keep on
chasing, pavements
should i just keep on
chasing, pavements

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

ciao!

backlog: back to ek

so EK, we meet again. gaah...

click pic to direct you to my multiply page

bamboo is the only rock band that i wanted to see live for a very long time.
the only good thing about our tripthanks to our company outing , i was able to see them AND BE JUST RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM. fuck. that was a blast. pics here, vids to follow soon. too lazy to put them on now.


ciao!

manilakbay

it's finally done.

congratulations to the people behind the event. congratulations to our team!

daytime activities committee - dennis, mai, tin, and keith
night programs committee - sir stig, ice, jonell, anton, and cathy
media committee - coco and i

special mention to coco who was awarded the model supervisor of the year across all affiliates!

this calls for a celebration!

ciao!

... ang mabuhay sa panginip

slepeh

this is crazy but it's already almost 4am. i was just done doing my nightly routine. it's been my 3rd day of doing overtime work which usually extends up until 1:30. this time, however, stretched to 3am. i still have work tomorrow and technically i need to be there by 8. i have no clue how i'm getting up later. i'll push it to almost 10 i guess.

a lot has happened the past week. most of it is all about work, which i won't really blog about because i know my two readers would get bored. so, in a nutshell, we are on the last week of preparations for the national convention next week. i'm excited and i'm scared. excited because this is gonna be my first convention which i helped organize and am a part of. also because we get to dress up. great. the only thing that bothers me is that i can't really enjoy it as much because i'll be running the whole 4 days - morning till night.
next week is gonna be the big bang. hopefully everything goes well. damn.
special mention: i did 130 invitations - did almost half of it, printed it, cut it and what happened? it was not released. GREAT.

but in all these, I AM GRATEFUL.

my only problem is, what am i to do the coming days after that? sheesh.

anyway, i gotta hit the sack now. buhbye. my eyes are literally popping out anytime soon.

goodnight philippines, goodnight world.

wuy. naghihintay ako..

PU

TANG

INA

KAININ SANA KAYO NG LUPA!

thieves in scrubs.

- ako, pangukol sa dentista.