palaisipan

Sana hindi ako mapagod.

Just another letting off steam

How can I tell you the many things I feel without scaring you away --

Like how much I wanna take care of you even if you don't say it, don't show it, or agree with it?

Like how much I just wanna hold your hand and keep it there until sweat runs through each fingers?

Like how badly I want to hug you even when it embarrasses you?

Like how I spent my waking solitary moments thinking of what to text you, just so I can talk to you even for a while longer?

Like how many times a day I try calling you and end up not doing so because I don't want you to feel as if I'm bordering obsessed?

Like how often I find myself thinking about asking you to just stay at my place so I can see you everyday but at the same time knowing that there's a possibility that like these things I mentioned, it might scare you away?

Like how confused I am lately I don't know whether to follow my own instinct of just sticking it out with and for you, or follow my friend's advice of just forgetting about it and move on to the next?

Like how writing and posting this is the only avenue for me to get this off my chest because I'm afraid that if I say these all to you, or even in small doses, you'll think I'm a freak and that I'll scare you away and that you'll run?

SIGH.

walking

interestingly enough, your hand fits perfectly into mine.