2010

Dear 2010,

I don't know whether to like you or hate you. But a lot of changes for me happened during this year. I ended a three-year career and moved on to another company. New faces are met. While I have to say goodbye to some. New friendships are also forged. Lies ended a love affair. New boundaries are being crossed. Lesser introspection, stopping, and thinking, and more focus on moving forward. Travels with friends came easy, too, this year. Old friends are still friends and bonds are stronger than before. More time with family. Another chance of being part of a family.

I guess that's just how it goes, 2010, no?

This is what I wanna share, ultimately. My status in Facebook and Twitter:

Forget starting over. Forget making new promises you know you'd break in the end. Forget all the hurt, forget all the sorrows, forget all the heartaches. Instead, continue to build a happy life for yourself, continue to make amends, continue to forgive, continue to love, continue to forge new friendships, and continue to tread new waters. In 2011, CONTINUE TO BE A BETTER YOU. Cheers my friends! =)

Sincerely,

Bryan

2009: the round-up

ang bilis ng 2009 no? parang kumurap ka lang sandali, tapos na siya. ang daming napagdaanan, nakakaiyak, nakakainis, nakakatuwa, nakakatawa. siguro, hindi man defining year ang 2009 for most of us, somehow, it still helped us define who we are :)pero, apart from the heartbreaks and the disappointments, the blessings and the material things, this is, by far, my most traveled year. i hope 2010 can at least level it, if not surpass it :)
(given na ang financial freedom, no need to mention hahaha)

this is my 2009

travels

vigan, laoag, pagudpud, potipot, iba, dumaguete, tacloban, ormoc, cebu, bacolod, iloilo

ang dami ko talagang narating nung 2009. mula sa tuktok ng pilipinas at hanggangmuntik na sa zamboanga, sayang. for work or pleasure, kahit na ano pa yan, i want to go to more places this 2010 :)

work

annual lakbay, visayas provincial training, retirement, night-outs

lakbay this year was held in ilocos and i went there twice. first to do an ocular and the second for the event itself. this was also the year that i was retired from work (and re-hired again). dahil dito rin kaya ako naging credit card - debt free :) this is also the first time that shey was able to go out with us after 3 long years of working with her.

bokbok adventures

michelle's new son, bokbok, ninoy aquino funeral.

monumental. yan ang right term sa pagdating ni bokbok sa buhay ko :) salamat sa santa claus ng buhay ko haha. daming mga memories na na-immortalize (naks!) dahil sa kanya. salamat bokbok. malapit ka na magkaroon ng mga kapatid :)

thank you din sa mga nagmamahal sakin, mahal na mahal ko rin kayo. kilala niyo na kung sino kayo.

cheers to the year that was and cheers to 2010. i wish you good health, a happy spirit, and a blessed year.

ciao!

happy new year!

happy new year!

so how's the new year treating you so far?

my 2008 has been nothing but a blur. everything came in painfully slow yet amazingly fast. i guess the one word that stuck with me throughout the past year was "waiting" -- waiting for that next project to come along, waiting for that big adventure, waiting for unreplied texts, unanswered calls, waiting for that next drinking session, waiting for that last final good bye, final glimpse, waiting for a higher paycheck, waiting for sanity to come barging in, waiting for reality to finally kick me in the gut, yeah that's it... waiting.
but just recently, i figured i'm not getting any younger. they say life is what happens while you wait. so come december, i managed to easily sway myself into not waiting anymore. i know i sound like a schizo right now but sometimes, you just have to psych yourself up into doing things that you normally wouldn't do on a regular or spur of the moment basis. so there. i stopped waiting. so what am i doing now? well just dusting myself up a bit and preparing for the longest run of my life -- or the highest dive -- whatever it is, i'm getting ready. i may be scrambling a bit but i'm readying myself. in a few weeks or (heaven forbid) months to come, i shall be set. and you know what happens after that -- i finally go.
hopefully 2008's lessons thoughened and taught me well.
but i'm still gonna wish for a better paying career, continued friendships, more love, better health, and hopefully a little less bumps on the way. for all we know, 2009 shall be up and over and we begin anew.

anyway, to spare us all the drama (as if going through my blog is not drama enough), this is 2008 in pictures.

have a great year!

ciao!

the round-up

buti nalang may blog ako para makita at maalala ko ulit ang mga pangyayari sa lilipas na taon. balikan nga natin, tignan natin kung may nagbago ba. kasi feeling ko dapat pataas ng pataas dapat ang lebel ko pero bakit ngayon biglang bagsak. zero. talo.
sige simulan na natin ang pagbabalik-tanaw.

enero
nako. ito na yung punto na ayoko gusto kong makipag giyera sa former work mate. manager siya, bisor lang ako. pero kahit na. mabuti nalang din at umalis ako doon dahil kung hindi, nagsimula at matatapos ang taon na miserable ang buhay ko. lalo pa't makikita ko ang mga taong plastikada at mga ipokrito. namen!

pebrero
nasa limbo ako nitong mga panahong ito. ito yung simula ng pagiging bum kong muli. walang masyadong nangyari, nanood lang ako ng nanood ng sine.
birthday ni yuri 'tong buwan na 'to.

marso
nagsimula na akong kumilos para sa panibagong trabaho. momentous ang buwan na ito dahil sa buwan na ito ko sinabi at kinonfirm sa sarili ko na, "i am ready for love"
o diba. napaisip lang ako - hanggang ngayon ready pa rin ako. parang hanggang ready nalang ako, walang get set, at go. nakakatawa pero hindi ako makatawa. hmp!
birthday ng nanay at ng kapatid kong si janna. pati ng barkada kong si macky.

abril
nagsimula na ako sa bago kong trabaho. april 2.
mejo nag small-get-together ang barkada ko. yun nga lang, wala ang ibang mga tao. si yuri nasa zambales. si tracy may duty. si nolan... ewan. ito rin yung buwan na pumunta kami ng zambales kasama si yuri. nakapag banana boat na rin ako sa wakas.

mayo
umuwi si jen sa pinas galing UK. hindi ukay ukay, totoong united kingdom.
sa buwan din ito nawala ang telepono ko. ang nakakatawa pa (na hindi ulit ako natatawa) mga ilang linggo bago siya mawala, pinagmamalaki ko sa mga ka-opisina ko na sa tagal din ng pagaaral ko sa taft, hindi pa ko nadukutan.
sabi ng destiny sakin "umm! gago!"

hunyo
isa lang ata ang highlight ng hunyo ko ngayong taon. umuwi nanay ko mula sa estados unidos. ayun. dumaguete nanaman. sabi ko nga "i've been dumaguete-d"
naks, imbento ng mga ganun. ayun, dahil bago pa lang ako sa kumpanya, nag leave without pay tuloy ako. isang linggo din yun. halos mag-amok ako nung nakita ko payslip ko.
birthday ni daryll, bunso kong kapatid. isama mo na rin si japs at si pedro.

hulyo
eto wala pa ring masyadong nangyayari. pero madalas nitong mga panahong ito, laging nasa bahay mga ka-opisina ni yuri. oks naman at least di na nalulungkot si yuri. nag-emote kasi siya sa trabaho niya, tinatamad na daw siya. heniwey, ayun nood pa rin kami ng nood ng sine. mga ganon ganon lang.
birthday din ng tatay ko. ika-27.

agosto
ayun, tong buwan na to, nagbonding na talaga kami ng mga ka-opisina ko. astig.
dito ko ring naramadaman na gusto ko pa rin pala yung dati kong pang gusto. nakaka-sad.

setyembre
hala, ito yung una at huli kong vblog. haha. o, wag niyo na i-check dahil mapipikon nanaman kayo(ng tatlong nagbabasa nito). at dahil may remnant pa rin ng nakaraang buwan tungkol sa mga bagay bagay ng love life, ayun, kumontinue pa siya sa buwan na to. at alam ko na 'daw' ang gusto ko. pfft.
death anniv ng tatay ko. ika-29.
oktubre
naging maganda ang pasok ng buwang ito. at kung gano kaganda ang pasok nito, ganun din ang kinapangit ng pagpapalit nito. dito na ko nagsimulang magtanong, mag isip, at mag duda. dito ko na rin nalaman na ganun na nga. birthday ko pa naman sa katapusan ng buwang ito. nagkatotoo na ang kinatakot ko sa umpisa ng taon.
birthday rin nila tracy at ni michelle.

nobyembre
syempre, continuation lang siya ng katatapos lang na buwan. ayun, tumuloy tuloy na ang naramdaman ko. ewan ko ba kasi kung bakit ganito, kung bakit kailangang ganun. tanginang fate to, sabi ko kailangan ko ng love life, hindi ng sakit ng ulo. ang alam ko magkaiba pa rin ang definition nun eh. sumakit na rin ang dibdib ko. umiwas ako sa kape. nalaman ko rin na may naghintay sakin, nalunod na ko sa kawalan at kalungkutan ng panahong ito.
dito ko nagawa ang di ko inakalang magagawa ko. ang magsulat tungkol dito.
dito na rin nagsimula ang pakiramdam ng pagiging mag-isa.
napalitan ko na rin ang template ko for 3 years.

disyembre
ito na ang naging comeback ng 2005 ko. tangena. ito na siguro ang pinaka malala kong pagtatapos ng taon. pagod, puyat, pagiisip, pagaalinlangan, pagdududa, at pagtatanong. lahat yun sa buwan na ito.
nalaman ko rin na aalis na pala si yuri papuntang cebu. 6 months lang naman daw. pero di na ata ako sanay/di ko na ata gusto ang maging mag isa. pero siyempre, hindi naman ako nampigil. umalis na siya nung 27 =,(
at tuluyan na kong magiging mag isa sa anim na buwan. dasal ko lang talaga, bumalik siya sa ika anim na buwan. dasal ko rin na lumipas na ang anim na buwan nang di ko nalalaman. ilang beses ko na rin binalikan ang anim na buwan at inisip kung gano katagal yun. at naisip ko na, tangena, ang tagal niya. nakakatakot.
hindi natanggal ng pagsasayaw (tanggal na rin ang kahihiyan ko sa katawan) sa harap ng madla ang lungkot ng pamamaalam pansamantala sa isang kaibigan.
dito ko rin naisip at nasambit ng malakas ang linyang nagpaiyak sakin: "lahat nalang ng mga taong malapit sakin, iniiwan ako."

nasimulan ko na ang countdown.

keeping the ball rolling

keeping the ball rolling this 2007

the eye
some window in greenbelt 4

i want to start this year by saying what i want to say. well, much like what i have done the past few years of my blogging existence. here it goes.

i have received comments not only posted here but said to me personally about my post "silang mga customers." a lot of people told me that it was quite an arrogant post. some told me it was very keen of me to have those observations.

i would want to comment on it myself.

first of all, i wrote that entry with an honest thought of just having mere observations posted on my blog. i intended it to be a writing of one's observation of the things that one sees. i, however, did not intend it to be aggressive, boastful, unkind, irritating, or even condescending.

with that post, i was merely stating facts. never in that entry did i say that being classified under the jologs is bad or negative. for we all know, WE ALL LOVE SALES AND DISCOUNTS. but i will definitely stand my ground when it comes to the other categories like "feeling mayaman" and/or "nagmamaganda/nagmamagwapo." no other reasons needed.

i am unhappy that those observations came off as being arrogant and aggressive, both of which were unintentional. however, it makes me happier to know that i am affecting people with what i write. more than that, the time they spend in reading my seemingly boring entries and even more time to send in their comments or tell me what they think. both of which are GREATLY appreciated. believe me, in this very cluttered world of blogging, i am pleased that, still, a few people take their time to read my POV. which also leads me to another point. this is MY blog. and if i piss people off because of my opinions, observations or whatever is posted here, my sincerest apologies. there are a lot of more talented writers out there to read about, a lot of other things to read about and a lot of other ideas to read about.

with that said, i like to think that, believe it or not, we are all being labeled of what we do, what we think, what we are, how we act, how we do, how we think, where we are, and how we are. but we create our own molds. we always have the freewill as to what we are going to be or how we are going to be. i also like to think that this mold, however it tries to contain us, can never define us. it is always up to us to break out of those labels, connotations, and categories and go out of our shells, so to speak.

and that's my POV.

cheers to another year of sometimes fearless, sometimes opinionated, sometimes boring, sometimes grammatically incorrect, sometimes profound, and sometimes senseless blogging!

ciao!