how do you feel?

i feel:

I'm trying to change to make the best, for us
But I'm just the same same as I ever was

Oh and if you stay with me honestly it's what I want
But if you stay with me I know I'll hurt you more

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself
it's only my heart
Oh no

So tell me I'm wrong please won't you change, my mind
This loves so intense sometimes it can lead, you blind

Oh and if you stay with me honestly it's what I want
But if you stay with me I know I'll hurt you more

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself
It's only my heart save yourself

And I don't want to let you go
But I know that it's the right thing to do baby
And I don't think I'm that strong
to say goodbye I don't wanna see you cry

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself

but still:

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
Well I'm not sure of my priorities
I've lost sight of where I'm meant to be
Like holy water washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand
You got to be the only one who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance I hope I can make it through
'Cause the only place that I want to be is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn
But if you're here with me I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
'Cause you are the only one who'll save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me