a decision

for the past week, i have been the energizer bunny. i decided to focus on work. i decided to beat deadlines. i decided to accomplish all the new things that's brought to me while struggling to find my balance in the routinary things that i'm doing. i decided to not think about being tired and sleep deprived -- not to mention the insomnia i feel i'm developing again. just thinking about the coming weeks stresses me -- the packing, the traveling, the trainings, the people i will be meeting, in short, the marketing-game-face -- must smile, must understand, must be on point, must be knowledgeable, must be a soldier. from what i know, i can only breathe after my birthday. and that's three months away.
then again, i am already decided. for the next couple of weeks, no feelings, no overthinking, no nothing except work, work, work.

i think this decision will help minimize disappointments, failures, and breakdowns in other aspects of my life.

everything, including that, is a decision.

ciao.