bleep

this and this... and this seems to be out of sync.

i am out of sync.

i need to do something and i don't know what. everything's a drag, a bore, and flat. ugh. work seems to be getting on my nerves. i see people around me as just mechanical beings -- i act, they react; they act, i react. and they piss the hell off of me. my social life is not something to be proud of either. i even have to beg people to go out and take a breather. but somehow, i'm good with that because my finances are terrible. i'm even in credit card debt. i only have one thing to hold on to and thank you for that.

i really need to be revived, restarted, reprogrammed, rebooted.

=(