my blog, i did not forsake thee

my blog, i did not forsake thee

first off, I MISSED WRITING HERE.

i feel like i've cheated my blog because instead of writing here, i've just been posting pictures after pictures. i don't know why, but i just don't have the patience anymore of sitting in front of the computer and staring at the blank page. in any case, i guess i owe this to myself - to write a potentially long post of what's been happening. a collective post, as you might imagine. i just don't know if this is gonna be longer than my october 2005 post.
so just to get my mind straight, let's put everything in its category.


work
yes, work. as you might notice, i haven't been blogging about work at all. the last you've heard is the things i have noticed about customers (which got mixed reactions) in my previous job. but to cut the story short, i've been looking and looking. finally, i've found the job that i think i can excel in. to simply explain it, i teach/train people. for the months before this job, i was at a loss. i guess the collage/abstract photoshop pictures i have put here before was the best explanation. like i said in my panel interview for this job, and that was the only time that i was able to think clearly as to why i seem to be just going 'round in circles, i want to be many things. i don't want to be stuck doing things that are routinary and mechanical. i want things to be fun, exciting, and, to some degree, unexpected. well, yeah. and i've noticed that i have pressured myself too much about having a good job - a job that i really imagine myself doing 2 to 3 years from now.
i have a job now. although, honestly, and i've been saying this to my friends a lot, i know that this is not YET the career i wish to pursue. for now, and i may be wrong, this is just a stepping stone to another career i wish to take. however, i intend to stay here for a couple of years. because as much as i want to jump from one job to another, i still want my future employers to think that i am serious in what i want to do, at least to have a direction, which for now, i don't know if i still have.
so if anyone of you knows a career counselor, refer me. and i'm not kidding.
all these aside, i want to put on record, though, that i have nice colleagues at work. our boss is not like your typical boss. my co-supervisors are as fun and naughty as i. so enjoy lang.
it was also my first ever seminar last thursday and it was the most exciting thing i ever did for work. but tiring at the same time. i don't know but i guess i'm in my element when i'm in front of people just talking and making jokes and at the same time teaching them. hmmm. mag artista kaya ako?

house
i want to sharniwala sa bill ko. feeling ko may magic na nangyayari eh. share naman kayo.
also, just a while ago, while i was on my way to hang my clothes dry, i accidentally bumped on one of the computer speakers and it fell. it didn't break. BUT FUCK. it was not on its wire anymore. i could almost feel my hear pounding as i look at it on the floor. i just came from the bath but fuck, i was sweating like a pig. the reason: it's yuri's speakers. so i immediately sent him a text message about it. as of press time (naks) i still haven't received a reply from him. i just hope no blood gets spilled over a speaker.
it was also last monday that our helper, ungga (yeah that's been his name eversince), waxed my floor. my floor now, for lack of a lesser word, DAZZLING. hehe. sa floor lang pala yun. kasi nagmukhang malinis ang bahay after that. hahaha.

election day
while in the subject of monday (may 14), i went back again for the second time to execute my right of suffrage. wanna know whom i voted for?
i forgot the order but it was LEGARDA, ESCUDERO, LACSON, PANGILINAN, AQUINO, ANGARA, ARROYO, ZUBIRI, PICHAY, PIMENTEL, DEFENSOR, RECTO.
it was so freaking hot in the precinct that i forgot i was voting for VILLAR. dammit i don't want to vote for recto and angara but i just itched to put them in the 11th and 12th post. damn the heat, i forgot about villar.
i voted for BINAY but i didn't vote for MERCADO simply because i don't like the way he smiled in their posters. para siyang walang alam tapos sumabit lang sa ticket nila binay. tapos si binay, dahil nasanaya na kay mercado, dinadala pa rin niya hanggang ngayon. ergo, the vicious cycle. haha. ang babaw, pero i didn't vote for JUST because of what he looks like. and to be on the logical side, though, i don't really know if he has projects in makati lol.

jen's visit
a month before the election day, jen came without a warning. like a thief in the night, she just "missed-call" (verb na pala ito) me. and when i realized that it was the week when she was supposed to arrive, i texted with; BITCH! ARE YOU HERE ALREADY? i dunno if those were the exact words but it definitely came off as something like that. ask jen! haha. so she was. the end.
haha kidding. we made plans to have dinner with her on saturday. so along with her pasalubong and (although i've heard her sing this before over the phone) the "crocodile, crocodile, may we cwoss the wotah, ta see ya loveleh dawtah, in a cup o' saucah!" rhyme, we also took pictures hehe.

[PICTURES]

two days before she left, we went out again. i asked permission from jen's mom but she said that we can only have her until early evening. i asked why, she said that her daughter is so makalat and magulo that all her stuff still isn't packed in the luggage. so i said, we'll make do with that time. it was supposed to be an early dinner with the same gang with patty. but patty was in leyte. abner tried to make it and cheska said she'll follow. we ended up with yuri, jd and mikee. turned out to be fun!

doing dance revo... i never thought i'd use that word again.

modelingfuck face

uhhm.. hmmmm...

seems like glow in the dark air hockey

remember this pose

and again...

lol!

seriously. what's up with that pose??

fucking around

hahahahahahahaha! aylovet!

wooshoo!

posing with a baby with wind in hair? amazing.

SO ENOUGH OF JEN.

for the past few days, mikee has been visiting my house and here's what i have.
now who can say that a flight attendant landed in their house?! haha! luckily the plane need not crash.

"would you like a barf bag, sir?"

family
i just talked to my mom this morning and she was worried that my brother and sister won't make it here in june. their greencards still has not arrived. i'm praying that it gets to them fast because i'm thinking about dumaguete and makati with them already every single day. and i've already arranged it with my boss to be on leave from the 22nd to the 29th. haay... dear god, please give them the greencard already.
there is also a growing tension here at home because of my cousin lilane, whom by the way is 6 months pregnant (i think). whatever is happenning, i wish her well and i'm missing her already. i really wish her all the best and god's guidance and providence.
hay family. you really can't choose your family so you just have to stick it up and swallow everything.


grabe i didn't know that i was typing a novel na. haha. sorry.
i just want to share to you the message i sent to someone through friendster because of her shout out.
here's what she said:

"Before I let you go, I want to say I love you!!! I dont know how it started and didnt expect will end this way... but one thing's for sure... I dont regret loving you! Maybe another time... in another lifetym. "

this is what i said:

or maybe not.
or maybe you don't deserve that brand of love.
or maybe you can do far better.
or maybe, it's already staring you in the eye and you just don't take notice.
or maybe, i'm just crazy.
or maybe, i know nothing of love.
or maybe, i'm mad.

but this one's for sure: we love because we are humans. but humans are in such madness that we forget what loving really is. and that's the vicious cycle.

but i hope you continue to love.
love yourself more first.
for you plant the seed of love in yourself first before someone can taste the sweetness of its fruits.

i dunno, i just felt mushy about it. haha

ciao!