of britney and the self

the onslaught of mental/emotional stress that manifested physically lately aroused my interest in reading things about it. i think i have it.

or maybe i'm just being a hypochondriac

in other news, i found these.

this is the original just in case.

this was the first cover i came across.

i think this is old already. but i find the mood so enchanting and amusing. galeng galeng!

and this one's the second.

eto naman, define kulot talaga! haha. it was okay na sana kaso ang dami lang naging acrobatics na parang OA na ang dating. gusto ko yung tunog niya though, may pagka amy winehouse.

that's all.

ciao!

somewhere only we know

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when, you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?

(somewhere only we know cover by natasha bedingfield)

haayy... nakakaiyak ang complicated. oh simple thing, where have you gone?

rediscovery

If tomorrow is judgment day
And I'm standing on the front line
And the Lord asks me what I did with my life
I will say I spent it with you...
Your love is my love and my love is your love
it would take an eternity to break us up
And no matter what the people say
I'll be waiting for you after the judgment day...

i remember i loved everything about this song -- lyrics, tempo, melody, and oh THE singerdiva.

next one, another rediscovery of an old 80's song. this one is just hilarious. made me laugh until i cried. i admire the person who did this, he must've been really bored and decided to do this. hope you enjoyed it as much as i did. =D


ciao!

how do you feel?

i feel:

I'm trying to change to make the best, for us
But I'm just the same same as I ever was

Oh and if you stay with me honestly it's what I want
But if you stay with me I know I'll hurt you more

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself
it's only my heart
Oh no

So tell me I'm wrong please won't you change, my mind
This loves so intense sometimes it can lead, you blind

Oh and if you stay with me honestly it's what I want
But if you stay with me I know I'll hurt you more

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself
It's only my heart save yourself

And I don't want to let you go
But I know that it's the right thing to do baby
And I don't think I'm that strong
to say goodbye I don't wanna see you cry

So won't you save, save yourself
by leaving me now for someone else
If I'm crying out don't listen to it
It's only my heart save yourself

but still:

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
Well I'm not sure of my priorities
I've lost sight of where I'm meant to be
Like holy water washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand
You got to be the only one who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance I hope I can make it through
'Cause the only place that I want to be is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn
But if you're here with me I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
'Cause you are the only one who'll save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

you make it real for me

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
Well I'm not sure of my priorities
I've lost sight of where I'm meant to be
Like holy water washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand
You got to be the only one who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance I hope I can make it through
'Cause the only place that I want to be is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn
But if you're here with me I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
'Cause you are the only one who'll save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

ciao

smoke

Leaf by Leaf page by page
Throw this book away
All the sadness all the rage
Throw this book away
Rip out the binding, tear the glue
All of the grief we never ever knew
We had it all along
Now its smoke
The things we've written in it
Never really happened
All of the people come and gone
Never really lived
All of the people have come have gone
No one to forgive smoke
We will never write a new one
There will not be a new one
Another one, another one
Here's an evening dark with shame
Throw it on the fire
here's the time I took the blame
Throw it on the fire
Here's the time we didn't speak
it seemed for years and years
Here's a secret
No one will ever know
the reasons for the tears
They are smoke
Where do all the secrets live
They travel in the air
You can smell them when they burn
They travel
Those who say the past is not dead
Stop and smell the smoke
You keep on saying the past is not dead
Come on and smell the smoke
You keep saying the past is not even past
You keep saying
We are, smoke

ciao!

flavors of entanglement

because music is my saviour and alanis is a demi-god with india arie as her headpiece and mika, her jester, i give you life in cartoon motion with flavors of entanglement, and you know that's the heart of the matter.

(turn off my site's sound on the right panel)

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
-- the heart of the matter

I've never let my grasp soften fingers like this...
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
-- moratorium

These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
-- versions of violence

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"
-- not as we

am dancing with my friends in elation
We’ve taken adventures to new levels of fun
I can feel the bones are smiling in my body
I can see the meltings of inhibition
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
-- giggling for no reason

I am someone easy to leave
Even easier to forget
A voice, If inaccurate
Again, I’m the one they all run from
Diatribes of clouded Sun
Someone help me find the pause Button
-- tapes

One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy
-- incomplete

These are things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
-- torch

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in
-- any other world

Don't let the stars get you down.
Don't let the waves let you drown.
Brown...Oh Billy Brown.
Gonna pick you up like a paper cup.
Gonna shake the water out of every nook.
Oh Billy Brown.
-- billy brown

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together...
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
-- happy endings

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.
-- my interpretation

flavors of entanglement is alanis' newest album after her breakup from ryan reynolds. it's not the alanis i'm used to - with some electric and synth tracks (moratorium). rather, this album speaks more of (her) grief than angst.
life in cartoon motion left me speechless because it was one of the most played albums in my ipod. but it is just this week that i actually "heard" the songs' lyrics. it baffled me, but after a few seconds of disbelief, i loved it even more.
india arie is india arie. this is a cover, though, of don henley's (eagles) song. but i like her version better.

ciao!

battle of who could care less

i know i posted ben folds five before. but for reasons unknown to me, it's just today that downloaded ALL their songs. at wala na yatang tatalo pa sa pagka-emo ng mga kanta nila. kahit upbeat, umi-emo ang level ng lyrics nila. heniway, aside from my favorite evaporated, listen to this! astig lang!

Do you not hear me anymore
I know its not your thing
-- To care
I know its cool to be so bored
But it sucks me in when you're aloof
It sucks me in, it sucks it works
I guess its cool to be alone

Will you never rest
Fighting the battle of who
Could care less
Every day you wake up late
Sometimes I wish I was
That way

see, i told you they're great!

in other news, since today is a monday, i once again appointed myself as the aliping namamahay for the whole day. my lower back and my legs are killing me right now. i was on an ironing-happy self again and i ironed out all the clothes i can lay my hands on. ayan, ang sakit tuloy. plus, hinabol ko pa yung laba ko na naiwan last week because of the weather. if there's one thing i don't like about rainy days ('coz i LURV rainy days), it's the fact that i can't hang my clothes out in the sun to dry. boooh.

'yun lang poH. hanggang d2 nlng poH ang ME. sana POH nagenjoy ang U para MXEA.
tahngenahngshiyeht. (bigkasin ng parang am-boy)

ciao!

mad world - gary jules

this is a great song. period.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

binisaya lang ta

kamingaw kaayo oy. kanus-a man ka mu-balik dinhi? kay baling dugay-a na ta dili nagkauban usab. pauli na lagi.

uban ta sa dumaguete ha. tawagon ta ka katong semana =)

taka-taka lamang ko oy.

pienso en ti

Cada día pienso en tí
pienso un poco mas en tí
despedazo mi corazón
se destruye algo de mí.

Cada día pienso en tí
pienso un poco mas en tí.

Cada vez que sale el sol
busco en algo el valor
para continuar así
y te veo así y no te toque
rezo por ti cada noche
amanece y pienso en ti
y retumban en mis oídos
el tic-tac de los relojes
y sigo pensando en ti
y sigo pensando...

noel cabangon - nag-iisa, wala ka na

right now, music is my salvation. what i cannot express in words, some other brilliant artist would tell my story and express what i'm feeling more eloquently and more artistically. one of them is my favorite OPM artist, noel cabangon. he is the artist behind the nostalgic "kanlungan."

through the net, i found out that he has released another album last year. i searched on youtube for his songs and found "nag-iisa, wala ka na."

the melody, the lyrics - the wholeness of it - is perfection.

papalubog na naman ang ilaw
nagpapaalam na naman ang araw
ang gabi ay muling mamamayani
at ang lamig ay hahaplos sa pisngi

ilang araw na ang lumipas
magmula nang ika’y magpaalam
ilang gabi na ang nagdaraan
ang pag-iisa’y tila di na makayanan

ngunit kailangang kong indahin ang lamig ng gabi
ngunit kailangan kong tanggaping wala ka na sa tabi
nag-iisa, wala ka na
wala ka na, nag-iisa

alaala’y nagbabalik sa isip
mga larawan ng bawat sandali
pag-ibig nating sinumpaan
ipinangako sa liwanag ng buwan

ngunit kailangan ko nang masanay
at tanggapin na lumisan ka na ng tunay
ang lahat-lahat ay bubuti
ang pag-ibig ay mananatili
lagi’t lagi…
hanggang sa walang hanggan…

i might do a cover sometime.

gravity

you truly are gravity..

i must say, i'm falling in love with sara bareilles. i first took notice of her first song to hit the airwaves - "love song." i thought i should listen to the rest of her songs. it was then that my love affair with her voice started. hers is a voice reminiscent of the soothing tori amos sounds and the melancholy sarah mclachlan's.

one of the tracks in her album - gravity - is now one of my favorites. the melody, the lyrics and the mix of tenderness, sadness, and hope in this song is pure genius and is hitting me right on the spot.
i searched on youtube for different versions of the song and i found this.

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

ciao.

same mistake

james blunt we meet again.

So while I'm turning in my sheets
And once again, I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Remember rights that I did wrong
So here I go

Hello, hello

There is no place I cannot go
My mind is muddy but
My heart is heavy, does it show
I lose the track that loses me
So here I go

And so I sent some men to fight,
And one came back at dead of night,
said "Have you seen my enemy?"
said "he looked just like me"
So I set out to cut myself
And here I go

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice,
Give me reason, but don't give me choice,
Cos I'll just make the same mistake again,

And maybe someday we will meet
And maybe talk and not just speak
Don't buy the promises 'cause
There are no promises I keep,
and my reflection troubles me
so here I go

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice,
Give me reason, but don't give me choice,
Cos I'll just make the same mistake again

So while I'm turning in my sheets

And once again, I cannot sleep

Walk out the door and up the street

Look at the stars

Look at the stars, falling down,

And I wonder where, did I go wrong.

another suitcase in another hall

another suitcase in another hall

I don't expect my love affairs to last for long
Never fool myself that my dreams will come true
Being used to trouble I anticipate it
But all the same I hate it -- wouldn't you?

So what happens now?
Another suitcase in another hall
So what happens now?
Take your picture off another wall
Where am I going to?
You'll get by, you always have before
Where am I going to?

Time and time again I've said that I don't care
That I'm immune to gloom, that I'm hard through and through
But every time it matters all my words desert me
So anyone can hurt me -- and they do

So what happens now?
Another suitcase in another hall
So what happens now?
Take your picture off another wall
Where am I going to?
You'll get by you always have before
Where am I going to?

Call in three months time and I'll be fine I know
Well maybe not that fine, but I'll survive anyhow
I won't recall the names and places of this sad occasion
But that's no consolation -- here and now

So what happens now?
Another suitcase in another hall
So what happens now?
Take your picture off another wall
Where am I going to?
You'll get by, you always have before
Where am I going to?
Don't ask anymore

oo

oo

di mo lang alam, naiisip kita
baka sakali lang, maisip mo ako
di mo lang alam, hanggang sa gabi
inaasam makita kang muli

hindi mo lang alam kay tagal nang panahon
akoy nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon, para sayo
lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
kung akoy nagkasala, patawad na sana
ang puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal

di mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan
baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
puro siya na lang, sanay ako naman
di mo lang alam, ikay minamasdan
sanay iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam

di mo lang alam, kahit tayoy magkaibigan lang
bumabalik lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan
baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
akoy nandito lang, hindi mo lang alam
matalino ka naman

kung ikaw at ako ay tunay na bigo
sa laro na ito ay dapat bang sumuko
sanay di ka na lang pala aking nakilala
kung alam ko lang akoy yong masasaktan ng ganito
sanay nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko

di mo lang alam ako'y iyong nasaktan
baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
puro siya na lang, sanay ako naman
di mo lang alam, ikay minamasdan
sanay iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
malas mo . . . ikaw ang natipuhan ko
di mo lang alam, akoy yong nasaktan..

self portrait

self-portrait

sino ka nga ba?

ikaw ba ay isa lamang sa milyong
hibla ng aking imahinasyon?

ikaw ba ang siyang
himig sa aking mga titik at letra
na hindi ko maipag-isa?

sadya ka bang mailap
tulad ng katinuang
matagal ko nang hinahanap?

sadya ka bang mapaglaro?
sadya ka bang mangungulit
sa diwa kong puyat?

mapusok ka bang talaga
na kahit pilitin kong limutin
ay parang batong babagsak
kahit ihagis pataas?

bakit ba hindi ka lumubay?

bakit sadya kang nandyan - tumititig?

mag-ingat ka.

baka kita'y biglang hablutin!

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billy/bryan

I am leaving today (don't know where I'm going).
Hold my head in disgrace (I can't escape the truth).
I know the price that I've paid.

I admit that it's too late to admit that I'm afraid.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes my soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but I'm always open,
To relive time in my mind.
Oh Bryan.

I am leaving today (don't know where I'm going).
I've got lines on my face (they tell the story of my pain).
I accept it's my fate.
I admit it took too long to admit that I was wrong.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes my soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but I'm always open,
To relive time in my mind.
Oh Bryan.

Once I was a lover sleeping with another.
Now I'm just known as a cheat.
And I wish I have a mirror; look a little clearer.
Seen into the eyes of the weak.

Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes my soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but I'm always open,
To relive time in my mind.
Oh Bryan.

dance with my father again

dance with my father again

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end

How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream


i just heard this play on the tv the other night. i thought the lyrics was ________.
enjoy.

angels

I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we’re grey and old
’cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I’m lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call
she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

When I’m feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I’ll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call
she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

i want this angel NOW!

same ground

My love,Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.Its hard leaving you that way when
I never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
Its strange i never would've
wanted if until there was you.

Because i have learned that love is beyond
what human can imagine,
the more it clears the more i have to let you go.

that's why i don't understand is why im feeling
so bad now when i know it was my idea.
i could've just denied the truth and
lied. but why am i the only one standing stranded
on the same ground?

Because i have learned that love is a
word gets thrown a little bit too much.
the best excuse to fill the infinite abyss
i have never have to if all else fail

If all else fail, would you be there to love me?
If all else fail, would you be brave to see right
through me?

... so true

... i'm feeling alright now