yet another dental escapade

so right after i woke up, i went to the dentist for a check-up on my molars. as previously mentioned, i've been experiencing hell-like pain for almost four days now and it has been tormenting me eversince. so, i've been really looking forward to this morning for i imagine the next years of living my life dental-pain-free.

now, here's the catch: as per my dentist's findings (x-ray and physical check-up) there should not be any problem because my scan's clean. she did find translucence in the x-ray but it was not with molar i (might) have been complaining about. now i've got to endure the pain for a week more because i've got to observe and pinpoint exactly where the pain lies.

i talked to her about all the things that we can do and as i expected there are two: a complete extraction of the aching tooth or a root canal procedure for the three nerves to preserve my tooth. of course, my primary concern is the cost. hello, i wouldn't wanna spend another thirty grand for teeth *cringes, shivers* hell no.
so it's extraction which roughly costs five thousand and that includes the filler so that my teeth won't move or a root canal which would preserve my tooth but would cost twice as that.

dillema, dillema, dillema.

i also told her about everything i did with and took for my pain and i asked if there is something stronger than ponstan. she prescribed flanax. now this is what would kill me -- the waiting part.

goodluck to me.

dear lord, please spare me this one. please...

i saw dead people

i saw two dead men sprawled on the street in sucat interchange last friday night. i just couldn't get the image out of my head. it was freaky and scary at the same time as there were a lot of policemen with big guns guarding the scene. we almost saw the other 14 along sucat service road but we were wise enough to turn back as traffic was not moving. (on second thought, it was also unwise as that was the time when we saw those dead men) *shivers*

read news here.

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in other news, i almost did not want to post this here but what the heck:

my head is about to explode. as of now, and three days back, i'm experiencing my worst toothache. there are no cavities to pinpoint exactly where it aches. but man, it throbs and it radiates throughout half of my head. i'm literally awakened in the middle of the night because of the pain. i haven't had a decent sleep for two nights now. i was actually on the verge of rushing myself to makati med last night because of the pain if only the fear of paying huge amounts of money didn't stop me. just to give you an idea, yesterday i downed 7 advils and 2 ponstans just to make it bearable. i was so high on painkillers, my eyes feel like popping anytime soon.
tomorrow morning, i'll be visiting the dentist yet again. hopefully it wouldn't cost me as much as it did before. remember this? right, "THAT."

wish me luck.

ciao!

PU

TANG

INA

KAININ SANA KAYO NG LUPA!

thieves in scrubs.

- ako, pangukol sa dentista.

open wide

dentist nightmare part II

"if it ain't aching, don't fix it. you're gonna be just fine."

that's my newly acquired motto with regard to visiting the dentist. i thought spending 20k right off the bat two weeks ago was too much. (i went there with just the goal of having my teeth cleaned of nicotine stains and avail of my medical benefit of two light-cures and free prophylaxis)

i just came home from my second visit to the dentist. let's rewind. i had a 1:30 appointment. but the assistant texted me and told me that my appointment was moved to 2:30. fine. so i was there 2:30 - no dentist, yet. ok so i sat down and waited. 3:00, no dentist still. alright so she's late. 3:30, i am now hungry since i haven't taken my lunch yet and still no dentist was in sight. so i went down to grab something to eat. 4:00 the assistant told me that the dentist is "on her way."
4:15 i finally met the dentist. only, he is not a she. he was not the dentist i was supposed to see.

dentist: "bryan? hi!"
me: "uhh yes. is doctor *bleep* coming in?"
dentist: "uh no, i'm gonna be your dentist today. she's my wife."
me: "(what?!?!) umm ok."
dentist: "please sit, it's just now that i'm seeing your impress, no. so... (pauses and looks at my teeth impress) hmmm... (scrutinizes the impress more, pauses) nako!"
me: "..."
dentist: "you have a lot of things to fix"
me: "yes, i know"
dentist: "so i believe everything is paid for already? i just have to finish this?"
me: *grimaces* yes.

so the dentist went on telling and showing me the crown my first dentist had done. "perfect!" i told myself. then he went on saying "BUT..." then i go, "OH NO" in my head.
"you see," he goes on as he demonstrates on the impress of my teeth, "if i place this crown now, i'm worried that this might not work. because you're previous root canal is too deep and i have to check it out first. the crown might just break. so i have to put a post first."
and i told the dentist that i was not made aware of it by his wife. and he went on saying what my first dentist told me, that i need to have braces. i told him that i cannot afford braces now and we should just focus on what has been already started. because frankly, i told him, paying 20k in one go has already put a huge hole in my wallet. so he finally agreed and started on doing my pasta.
of course, as with all the dentist, they will literally go through the lengths of being good actors with exclamations such as "oh my god... this is really bad!" and "you should really consider what i'm telling you. in fact, you need an operation already."

gawd! yeah right.

i did not mind anything that he's saying, to be honest. because all i can hear is the ka-ching of the cash register everytime. and it sickens me.

fast forward. after two pasta's, my second dentist told me that we'll do the rest on our next meeting. i swear to god i just wanted to explode. i mean i was actually planning this visit to be my last already because for the coming weeks, i'll be busy with work. now i have to go back at least three times. with my schedule, i have to really stretch myself twice over just to get this thing done and over with.

worse: my second dentist told me that my first dentist (his wife) missed counting one pasta i had. so i had to pay another 800.
worst: he did the liberty of putting medicine on two of my pasta for today. great right? but no. it cost me 450 a pop. and i had two. so motherfuckinshitputangenangasshole diba?!?!?!

in this yet another long rant-post, my point is, never, NEVER go to the dentist if you don't feel anything. as they say, "if it's not broken, don't fix it."

matapos lang 'to, and i swear i'm done with dentists. the only time i'll be seeing them is for prophylaxis and some serious dental emergencies. period.

open your wallet wiiiiiiddeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!

snippets

just yesterday, i was held up.

by my dentist. i've been thinking about it right after the procedure. i've also been thinking about it last night. and frankly, everytime i do, i would just cringe at the fact that i spent thousands and thousands of bloody pesos just for my teeth.

i'm broke to the nth degree.

so goodbye james blunt concert. goodbye (my friend, you have been the one... you have been the one foooorrr meeeee).

and yes, i've been brushing my teeth, thank you very much.

mommy call me, i need to tell you something. and call me when you're at the best of moods. haha.

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for a few months now, for every step i take, i take two steps back. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me but i keep on second guessing myself. i just have a lot of things in my mind that i feel i can no longer contain. it gets tiring at times. but what can i do? for now, i believe that's the best thing i can do.

i need a therapist.

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i've been obssessing about something. is that included in the 7 deadly sins? i really think i'd be an excellent private investigator.

so shall i be.

sniff. sniff.

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yosi

yet again,
i kiss the burning fire -
so shall it bear
new life.

fiery
is the glowing red
that slowly devours
its own offspring.

its travails
seem but futile -
its intentions
still hazy.

and so shall this
kiss
end
in eternity.

ciao!