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just watch please.

^.^

i miss my friends

i don't wanna get married yet. i just want their exuberance and lightheartedness. for an occasion that many people take too seriously and with much fanfare, they chose to be themselves and be the best of friends as they are. it shows.

nakakainggit, pag pinapanood mo, alam mong bukod sa mahal nila ang isa't isa, magkakaibigan silang tunay. at ang song na napili --- naman! hahaha.

i just can't stop smiling the whole time. btw, this is not an original upload by the couple, they disabled embedding so i'm left with this link. it's the same video though.

enjoy!

"it's like i waited my whole life, for this one night..."

i miss my friends!

ciao!

o happy day

thank you lord. sa hinaba-haba ng prusisyon, sa simbahan din pala ang tuloy.

minsan kasi ang buhay mahilig magbiro. minsan mahilig din magpaasa -- di mo alam kung dadating ang inaasahan mo, o habangbuhay ka nang aasa. minsan mahilig din ang buhay na pahirapan ka ng konti lalo kapag ganadong ganado ka sa ginagawa mo.

pero kanina, sabi siguro ng fate, "haay tama na ang paghihirap mo bryan. ok na yan. dahil sa naging good boy ka, etong sa'yo..."

tapos kinabukasan, may gigising sayo. tatayo ka at bubuksan ang pinto. tapos ito ang babati sayo...

tapos sasaya na ang buhay! :)

friends, i want you to meet my new baby -- bokbok.
first time kong mag-name ng gadget of any kind. feels nice. bokbok. my bokbok! :)

lord, sa lahat lahat ng blessings na pumasok, pumapasok at kahit yung hindi pumapasok sakin ngayon, maraming salamat po!!


ciao!

masaya

kahit na may apat na naglalakihang pimples sa mukha ko, at maraming beses akong makikita ng mga tao sa mga susunod na linggo, at may event kami in two weeks, at magbi-beach kami bukas, i'm happy.

kahit na medyo nagigipit na ko at halos wala na kong mabunot sa wallet at sa atm ko, kahit na hindi na ko nakakapag grocery in the last month, i'm happy.

kahit na madalas akong mag-isa sa bahay at wala akong ibang kausap kung hindi ang mga pader, kama, ilaw, at mga kasangkapan, o kaya nakaharap sa tv o sa computer, o kaya yakap yakap ang paborito kong unan, i'm happy.

kahit na feeling ko magkakasakit ako, at nararamdaman kong nanghihina ang katawan ko kahit anong gawin kong pagtulog, i'm happy.

kahit na sobrang init -- nakakapaso ng balat, at sa tingin ko kaya rin ako nagkakapimples, at nakakalagkit ng katawan at nakakainit ng ulo, i'm happy.

kahit na maraming nangyayari sa paligid ko na dapat kong ikainis at ikalungkot, at sinasabayan siya ng lahat ng nasa taas, i'm happy.

ewan ko, masaya ako ngayong araw na 'to, mahirap itago.

happy holy week!

ciao!

sunday 10 a.m.

i have a whole lot of reasons why i shouldn't be feeling great right now. i have a whole lot of ways to not feel anything other than being sad and lonely. i have a whole lot of them, believe me.

but this morning is just great. i woke up without feeling tired or sleep deprived. the sun is shining like crazy. my dog didn't pee on the floor. the weather is perfect. the house is clean. the coffee i made felt nice running through my throat - sending the electric caffeine all over the nooks and crannies of my body. and even if i used my last fag while having coffee, i felt fine.

for the first time in a few months, i felt... alive.

because this lazy sunday morning, amidst all the reasons that i have and the feelings i unintentionally cultivated for the past couple of days, even just for this day, i choose to be happy.

GOOD MORNING!

masaya ba?

pano mo ba malalamang masaya ka talaga? do we choose to be happy? or happinness chooses us? or do we have to find happinness itself?

mga isang linggo ko nang iniisip kung talagang masaya ako. iniisip ko minsan na masaya ako. iniisip ko rin minsan na hindi na ko masaya. madali sanang isipin na kung hindi ako masaya, pipilitin kong maging masaya. pero inisip ko na kung pinilit kong maging masaya, di ba't ibig sabihin nun ay di talaga ako masaya?

i was transferred to another location and i don't know if what i'm feeling right now is the result of another adjustment or baka naman talagang hindi ako para sa mga tao doon. the work load is the same. the things i'm doing is the same. but i'm no longer happy. although everyday i'm making new friends, it's still the feeling of emptiness. yung parang ginagawa mo lang ang mga bagay para lang sa gawin mo sila.

siguro ganun talaga sa umpisa. hindi ko lang maalala kung naramdaman ko rin ito sa una kong trabaho at lugar na pinagtatrabahuhan. siguro rin katulag ng nauna ko nang sinabi, i need new things to do. to keep me on my feet. to let me creative juices flow.

sa totoo lang, may mga taong napaplastikan ako doon. pag kaharap mo ngiting ngiti at parang walang kaproble-problema. pero alam na alam ko na hindi ganun ang sitwasyon. may pakpak ang balita, may tenga ang lupa. the word gets around.

wala rin itong koneksyon sa nauna kong post dito noong na-issue-han ako ng warning. dahil sa umpisa pa lang, naramdaman ko na ito at pinagisipan ko na rin ito.

o well, let's see kung aayos ang mga bagay bagay. pinagdarasal ko lang na matapos na ang training ko at magsimula na para tapos na rin ang mga ito.

i am happy

i am happy

i just came from a very long bath and i feel so tired.
it's my rest day today and all i did was clean the house and do my laundry. i'm not complaining though.

right now, i can truly say that i'm happy with the way things are going in my life. i don't have the perfect job, i don't have the perfect friends, i don't have the perfect situations, but these imperfections really do make my life all worthwhile - easier and lovable.

i am not expecting any more drama this year because first thing i'll do is to shut the drama off. i've been there, i've done that, nothing more to it. one thing i've learned though is that when God shuts the door, it's not just the window he leaves open, the backdoor is always wide open. there will always be a silver lining on each rain cloud. luckily i found mine.

i'm happy now.

it's been too long since i said that. and it feels so damn good!

I AM HAPPY!

dumaguete pics 3

feb 3 & 4

the day was spent at home. it was relaxing because i got a full body massage. by the way

posing for a pic this early in the morning really didn't make me happy

then i loosened up

then we all did


this is one progression of poses that you so want to get on film, though in my case, digital camera.

POSE#1
POSE#2
POSE#3

by afternoon, we headed for the beach.

i love this picture of my three cousins

tita guing said this was candid. didn't think so.

by night time, i was able to capture a lizard eating a dragonfly which was almost twice his size.


phoebe and ari posed for their very first photo shoot. look what photoshop can do.



the next day was the party look at the lechon.

GOING...
GOING...

GONE.

they like to pose... a lot.

ciao!