isang malaking...

lord, bakit ang dami daming tanong ngayon? wala akong makitang sagot...

sa ngayon, ito muna panghahawakan ko:

Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.

letters to a young poet
rainer maria rilke

i remember that's the quotation i printed on a piece of paper and stuck on the fridge. it remained there for a few years until my mom threw it away when she came back.