this week

i am so spent.

;-(

next time

di na ko uulit. sayang na sa effort. this time, pag inulit mo yun, tapos na ang usapan.

iba ako pag nagseryoso.

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feeling nostalgic

nostalgic.

this has nothing to do with me.

ciao!

i really don't understand

why you can't give me 100% of the truth.

i don't understand your pretensions.

i don't understand the hiding.

i just don't get you sometimes.

.

tang*na

kaya pala.

at natanga nanaman ako dahil nagpauto naman ako.

bad day

i conducted trainings in galleria today. after buying lunch, the mango shake slipped from my hands and, after attempting to regain my grip, spilled on my tie, polo, pants, and shoes.

and it happened in the middle of the mall. fuck. i ran as fast as i can back to the CR in our office.

i didn't notice that i was also clutching my phone that time. it was also drenched in mango shake.

this evening, before dinner, my aunt told me something about *something* that irritated me so much. buwisit. tangina. puñeta.

ito lang, kung may problema kasi kayo sakin, SABIHIN NIYO SA HARAP KO. direcho akong tao. walang kiyeme. kaya sana kayo rin.

tae.

and suddenly

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it rains. 

perfect.

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random thoughts

i'm back to writing in my journal again. it's nice to feel the grip of the pen in my hands and the texture of the paper while i'm writing everything down. it took me a few days to get back to my handwriting. for quite some time now, i only wrote things for small notes, reminders, and grocery lists. because of that, my hands ached after only the first paragraph. 

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i started reading the manual for bokbok. my gulay, there's still a lot to learn about it. i have yet to take a day off (as if i'm busy) to read and try everything there. 

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i drew again :) might be posting some of those shit again soon. i'm still thinking about it. my next project is to do my portrait in charcoal. 

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it's been cold for days now. i like it! thing is, for some reason, ang daming lamok. eh when i'm inside the house, i only wear boxers. ang dami ko tuloy pantal.

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for quite some time now, my right ear have been really itchy. it's super clean but it still itches. i'm suspecting that that's the reason. i always clean my ears kasi after the bath and i do the whole shenanigan -- cotton buds plus kutchara hehe. i should see an EENT specialist soon.

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i've been trying to go to hidalgo for almost a month now but i can't. either wala akong kasama or yung supposedly kasama ko, ayaw or hindi pwede that day. it's okay naman kasi at least, less gastos.  if ever, i'll be buying a filter lang naman and maybe (praying!!!) that i get to find an excellent yet very cheap speedlight. 

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ayoko na magtrabaho. pwede bang humilata na lang at sundin lang ang tawag ng katamaran? pero may pera pa rin ha? haha.

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i'm so excited about march. SOOOO excited... and i just can't hide it. lol.

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i miss you. i'm praying *this* works out well.

ciao!

maybe sometimes

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i need to be selfish.

.

"... can't stop smiling."

yan ang status ko sa facebook kanina.

i was also supposed to be in bed already but something happened between that post and bedtime that made me sit up again and rant.

and rant is what i'll be doing.

una, nakaka-irita. pramis. yung mga ganung dahilan, nakakairita. baluktot kasi. nagmamadali ka parati, eh tangina lang, ikaw naman may hawak ng oras mo.

pangalawa, PWEDE BA? pwede LANG ba?? yung mga pa-hint-hint mo, hindi gumagana. and again, nakaka-irita! dahil kung hinde sisigaw ako

pangatlo, pucha tubuan ka naman ng konting ka-ewan-an. kasi kung magtatanong ka kung kelan ako pwede, panindigan mo naman ang pagtatanong. dahil tatae-tae lang ang mga ganitong bagay kung ganun.

follow through.

learn it. yun lang yun. tsk.

GRRRRR!!! john grisham nasan ka ba, patulugin mo na ko.

letch.

ok, tapos na ang palabas.

i still can't stop smiling. thank you lord! :)