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dentist nightmare part II

"if it ain't aching, don't fix it. you're gonna be just fine."

that's my newly acquired motto with regard to visiting the dentist. i thought spending 20k right off the bat two weeks ago was too much. (i went there with just the goal of having my teeth cleaned of nicotine stains and avail of my medical benefit of two light-cures and free prophylaxis)

i just came home from my second visit to the dentist. let's rewind. i had a 1:30 appointment. but the assistant texted me and told me that my appointment was moved to 2:30. fine. so i was there 2:30 - no dentist, yet. ok so i sat down and waited. 3:00, no dentist still. alright so she's late. 3:30, i am now hungry since i haven't taken my lunch yet and still no dentist was in sight. so i went down to grab something to eat. 4:00 the assistant told me that the dentist is "on her way."
4:15 i finally met the dentist. only, he is not a she. he was not the dentist i was supposed to see.

dentist: "bryan? hi!"
me: "uhh yes. is doctor *bleep* coming in?"
dentist: "uh no, i'm gonna be your dentist today. she's my wife."
me: "(what?!?!) umm ok."
dentist: "please sit, it's just now that i'm seeing your impress, no. so... (pauses and looks at my teeth impress) hmmm... (scrutinizes the impress more, pauses) nako!"
me: "..."
dentist: "you have a lot of things to fix"
me: "yes, i know"
dentist: "so i believe everything is paid for already? i just have to finish this?"
me: *grimaces* yes.

so the dentist went on telling and showing me the crown my first dentist had done. "perfect!" i told myself. then he went on saying "BUT..." then i go, "OH NO" in my head.
"you see," he goes on as he demonstrates on the impress of my teeth, "if i place this crown now, i'm worried that this might not work. because you're previous root canal is too deep and i have to check it out first. the crown might just break. so i have to put a post first."
and i told the dentist that i was not made aware of it by his wife. and he went on saying what my first dentist told me, that i need to have braces. i told him that i cannot afford braces now and we should just focus on what has been already started. because frankly, i told him, paying 20k in one go has already put a huge hole in my wallet. so he finally agreed and started on doing my pasta.
of course, as with all the dentist, they will literally go through the lengths of being good actors with exclamations such as "oh my god... this is really bad!" and "you should really consider what i'm telling you. in fact, you need an operation already."

gawd! yeah right.

i did not mind anything that he's saying, to be honest. because all i can hear is the ka-ching of the cash register everytime. and it sickens me.

fast forward. after two pasta's, my second dentist told me that we'll do the rest on our next meeting. i swear to god i just wanted to explode. i mean i was actually planning this visit to be my last already because for the coming weeks, i'll be busy with work. now i have to go back at least three times. with my schedule, i have to really stretch myself twice over just to get this thing done and over with.

worse: my second dentist told me that my first dentist (his wife) missed counting one pasta i had. so i had to pay another 800.
worst: he did the liberty of putting medicine on two of my pasta for today. great right? but no. it cost me 450 a pop. and i had two. so motherfuckinshitputangenangasshole diba?!?!?!

in this yet another long rant-post, my point is, never, NEVER go to the dentist if you don't feel anything. as they say, "if it's not broken, don't fix it."

matapos lang 'to, and i swear i'm done with dentists. the only time i'll be seeing them is for prophylaxis and some serious dental emergencies. period.

open your wallet wiiiiiiddeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!

pa-burger ka naman!

finally!! nakakuha na rin ako ng kopya. ang tagal kong hinanap to.

ang lakas kasi ng tawa ko sa bahay kahit mag-isa lang ako nung napanood ko 'to. hahaha..

enjoy!

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tuck-in ad (my favorite)

love ko 'to!

ciao!

pa-special daw oh

kailangan kong mag-release.

i don't want to make a big deal out of this sana kaso therapy ko na ang magsulat.

ayoko kasing maging pabigat sa team. sa lahat ng mga team na sinalihan ko, kahit sinong tanungin mo, never akong naging pabigat - lalo na yung mga sinasadyang pabigat. hindi ako pa-special. dahil vain man ako at gusto ko ng atensyon, hindi ako ang tipo ng tao na gagawa ng kainartehan para lang makakuha ng atensyon. in fact, that is my pet peeve. kaya hindi ako ganun.

kaya nakakainis kapag nagiging ganun ka ng hindi mo naman sinasadya. lalo na kung sa umpisa pa lang naman, malinaw na sa mga tao sa paligid na may mga bagay na hindi ako kumportable gawin. tapos sa huli, people will see you as pa-special. tangena naman.

hindi naman kasi ako nagsasayaw. isang beses lang ako nagsayaw ng solo. nung december sa christmas party. sa umpisa pa lang, ayoko nang sumali. sabi ko pa, ipagawa na nila lahat lahat sa akin, huwag lang ang magsayaw sa harap ng tao. pero dahil hindi ako pabigat sa team, sabi ko sa kanila, sige, just this once, i will do it. i'll charge it to experience nalang din. so ok naman ako dun. ginawa ko siya. binigay ko lahat lahat ng kaya ko. ok na. sabi ko sa kanila "this is the first and last time i'll ever dance in front of a crowd."

seryoso ako.

ngayon, naisipan nilang mag present ulit sa isang event. kasama ang grupong sinalihan ko. maaga pa lang, pinaalalahanan ko na silang ayoko na. that i'm done with that experience.

again, seryoso ako.

pero parang hindi yata nila naiintindihan ang tagalog at english. pinipilit nila ako. eh ayoko nga. ang masama pa, ako yung nagmumukhang masama. ako yung nagmumukhang pa-special.

nakakabanas pa na umabot sa svp ang pagtanggi ko. kahit na ano pang sabihin ko, umabot na sa svp. tangena naman diba.

"eh sino bang may gusto?"

aba ewan ko sa inyo. basta ako ayoko. ginawa ko na siya ng isang beses at malinaw sa umpisa na isang beses ko lang siya gagawin. may hindi ba ko nasabi sa inyo? may hindi ba maliwanag sa AYOKONG MAGSAYAW SA HARAP NG MADLA?! hindi naman ako nagpapasolve ng calculus ah.

"it's part of our job"

no, i beg to disagree. we do a lot of things that is way beyond what our job description says. and that's ok with me. to the point that it is already to my detriment. hindi na ko naningil ng mga taxi fares na dapat charged sa kumpanya. kahti na hindi ako madalas mag OT hindi naman na ako nagfa-file. hindi rin ako humihingi ng sobra kahit na minsan gusto ko nang magreklamo ng malakas dahil sa kahit computer sa opisina ay hindi maayos. hindi rin ako nagiinarte pag pinapasali ako sa mga extra curricular activities na may involved na pagkanta - dahil ok lang naman siya sakin, hindi naman masyado nakakahiya boses ko, ehem ehem. there are a lot of things na ginagawa ng team namin na more than our job description dahil gusto namin at enjoy naman kami.

but i know where to draw the line especially if i'm already being forced to do something that which makes me uncomfortable is an understatement. kung ok naman ako sa pagsasayaw, bakit ko naman ipagdadamot yun?

buti sana kung may kinalaman siya sa trabaho - training, marketing, administrative jobs, at mga presentations.

oo, it's a personal choice. i also take it personally when i'm being forced to perform something that humiliates me to my very core.

i still have my boundaries, yes.

kaya sana huwag namang ganun. mahirap maipit sa sitwasyong sa umpisa pa lang, iniiwasan mo na.

ang sakin lang, huwag namang kunin yung katiting na hiya meron ako. ang arte ko, pero yung ang totoo kong nararamdaman.

the feeling is so strong that i'm actually willing to resign if it ever comes to that point.

BUT.

since ayoko nga mag pa special, kung pipilitin nila ako, sige. PAYN! gagawin ko. pero i hope it's clear that i will TOTALLY NOT ENJOY IT AND THAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AT ALL.

hindi ako pa-special.

done. now what?

yesterday, i graduated from the dale carnegie course. nice.

next please.



ciao

american idol etcetera

mom still hasn't called.

lot's of flies a while back.

zapped 'em with my electric-mosquito-killing-tennis-racket.

all dead.

'mbunch still spills her food while playing with it. spoilt little bitch.

watched american idol after a lot of missed episodes and i realized, a lot of them have already been sent home. fortunately, these three are still here. my top 3 picks.

(i picked ramiele early this season because she's filipino and cute to boot. but she really had it coming especially with this season's talents)

watch them.

love the way his music was arranged for this performance. violins are always good. david cook's vocals in this performance were a bit too unstable for my taste though.
now, show me someone who can play violin well.

i like the way he reminds me of jason mraz. and you should know that jason mraz is one of my all-time favorite musicians. (light bulb moment: they have the same first names!)
i like jason castro's simple, laid-back kinda style. in this competition where earth-shattering vocals are always lauded, i always appreciate power and simplicity.
just one question, though: ano kaya amoy ng buhok niya?! gaah.

david archuleta has been one of my early faves. can't believe he's just 16. dammit. when you see people like him, you just ask yourself - what have i been doing to my life?!
there's just quite a lot of awkward moments with him on stage and that's my only problem. i couldn't care less if he sings ballads for the rest of eternity. he has a nice voice anyway.

oh well, i think that's it.

hey you, pick up!

snippets

just yesterday, i was held up.

by my dentist. i've been thinking about it right after the procedure. i've also been thinking about it last night. and frankly, everytime i do, i would just cringe at the fact that i spent thousands and thousands of bloody pesos just for my teeth.

i'm broke to the nth degree.

so goodbye james blunt concert. goodbye (my friend, you have been the one... you have been the one foooorrr meeeee).

and yes, i've been brushing my teeth, thank you very much.

mommy call me, i need to tell you something. and call me when you're at the best of moods. haha.

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for a few months now, for every step i take, i take two steps back. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me but i keep on second guessing myself. i just have a lot of things in my mind that i feel i can no longer contain. it gets tiring at times. but what can i do? for now, i believe that's the best thing i can do.

i need a therapist.

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i've been obssessing about something. is that included in the 7 deadly sins? i really think i'd be an excellent private investigator.

so shall i be.

sniff. sniff.

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yosi

yet again,
i kiss the burning fire -
so shall it bear
new life.

fiery
is the glowing red
that slowly devours
its own offspring.

its travails
seem but futile -
its intentions
still hazy.

and so shall this
kiss
end
in eternity.

ciao!

pssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssst!!


=,(

how to deal

i know i seriously need to work on my issues. but the problem is, i don't know what exactly my issue is. i know what i'm going through but i can't exactly pinpoint or tell what it is.
i had to down 3 bottles of beer just to be able to bring myself to talk to you.

sabi sa class ko, know what the problem is, then focus on the possible solutions. eh yun nga yun eh. ano ba talaga kasi? kung ganon lang kadali yun eh di sana wala nang ganito ganito.
i had to smoke 5 sticks of cigarettes just to convince myself that nothing would go wrong.

ang nakakatawa pa, alam ko ang solusyon. at isa lang ang solusyon - na hindi ko pa magagawa.
but, then again, i was wrong. i was not even able to talk to you in the first place.

sabi nga dito: oh god, what have i done...

Here I stand - sad and free
I cant cry and I cant see
What I've done
Oh, God what have I done?

pocketful of sunshine

i was in the office a while ago and was doing nothing (fyi: i finished all my tasks and deliverables in the morning. =P ) and thought about this:

i need something to hold on to every time i feel a little down. i need it to come from my own experiences. so i thought of putting all the good things that i can be proud of/happy of in pieces of paper and just draw from the lot when i feel the need to.
but why waste paper? so i'll just do it here online. on my blog. duh.

so starting from today, whenever i experience something good, i shall write it on here. that's all hehe.

pocketful of sunshine:

in my previous job, while helping out one of the cashiers, one customer, while paying for his merchandise asked for my name. the whole time i was helping the cashier, i was all smiles and i was actually quite cheerful. he asked so aggressively that i was actually taken aback and thought immediately that i was a bit too irritating for him. and the fact that his eyes were squinting at my name plate's direction didn't help at all.
so i looked at him shyly and said: uhh, yes sir? it's bryan.
i was actually waiting for some not-so-nice words from him.
then he paused and said: bryan, huh... you deserve your position.
then he went off carrying loads of paper bags.

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in other news, i love this new coke angel ad. something really refreshing.

i wish i know what soundtrack was used though. help?

ciao!

holy wednesday

last holy wednesday denggoy kidnapped us and brought us to villa de la gallardo. this was the day before the zambales thing.

(click pic to direct you to my multiply page)

ciao!